I just saw a video of 'Bon Jovi', the 90's rock star on BBC news, the guys hair was grey.
I'm use to seeing the 'I'm a Cowboy, on a steal horse I ride', Bon Jovi, boy seeing him with grey hair really reminded me of how time is passing so quickly for us all.
On a side note, they were organizing charity food bank stuff at the Hamptons in, so very nice of them. Yes the Hampton's Inn is richest zip code in U.S., but not for the workers who serve the rich, I guess.
What my own mind is telling me is that in order to completely heal (no one ever completely heals from anything, but forgetting about stuff helps that process), is to even go back and get rid of old address books.
Yes I still have old address books from the past when people used them.
Cause what happens is if, or when, I get 'drunk', and silly or feeling bold, I'll go back and start calling old numbers in address books, numbers haven't called in years...and every now and then will connect with someone from way long ago, and that's where issues begin, emotional ones.
Cause if only dialed them cause 'drunk', than that means should never have.
With me, anyways, I notice most of my emotional trouble spots occur when I reach back to those who never cared for me, or if did, no longer.
It's like reaching back to some one who didn't like you then, and still doesn't like you, or have any use for you, and thinking it'll be better 'this time'....no it won't.
And I have to find that out the hard way every time.
And I'm not saying just cause another doesn't want you in their life anymore or see any use for you in their life anymore means their 'bad'.
It just means that 'block' of relationship has moved on, like that sci-fi movie 'Cube'.
But ye, my emotional woes always evolve around me wondering why this or that person doesn't call, or didn't call, ect, then you start to doubt yourself, and or do something to get their attention that makes it even worse.
'LET IT GO', is what the sensible part of my mind keeps telling me.
If I were religious I'd say 'God is telling me to let it go', but I can't say it's god, but can say it's the sensible part of my mind, the part of my mind that wants me to be happy moving forward.