Puppy dog

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For the first time in years, I have a pet again, not sure how I feel about it.

I got it in 'the moment', and in the moment it made sense.

If I don't feel I can adequately care for it, I'll give it back to original owners, and pay them what I paid for it.

I'll give it till Sunday night to know if I'm willing to change personal habits enough to accomidate new pet.

Ways I'd have to change..

1. Be willing to get up early to walk pet

2. Be willing to go out late, to walk dog

I mean that's basically it.

Can I do that?, am I willing to do that?

Animals need exercise, no amount of a 15 or 10 minute walk here or there can substitute for how much animals exercise in the wild, or on a farm.

Taking a dog out so it can 'urinate' is not really exercise, no more than us getting up off couch to go urinate.

Exercise is running or jogging for extended periods of time.

I can do that, cause I do happen to be in shape, but can I do it daily, multiple times a day?



Also, what is my motivation for wanting a pet?

Is my motivation selfish?, or good for pet?

I'm to 'kind to animals' to ever abuse them, but just because one is 'kind' doesn't mean animal will benefit from kindness, unless kindness directly relates to behavior, habits, that benefit pet.

Time will tell.

If I keep it, I think we both will benefit...

1. Puppy had fleas when I got it, will not have any fleas after a few days with me.

2. Having puppy will force me to live more healthier, exercise more, get out more, as now I'll have reason to go to park, explore, ect.

3. Having a pet will bring me back towards 'main stream' habits and thoughts, for when caring for another person or animal, it forces you back into the mainstream a bit.

4. Will chase intruders away...LOL..

5. Knowing my actions effect another, may motivate me to make smarter decisions effecting my future.

6. Dog will be spoiled and eat well

And I could go on.

Me and puppy will benefit from each others union, if union directive is positive on my part.

It will take a few days for me to actually bond with puppy...right now I like it, but in generic way, in that I like, love, respect all 'life'...but no bond yet, in that could get rid of it tonight and would not effect me emotionally at all.

But now I want a kitten...

If I get a puppy, puppy needs kitten for companionship when I'm not here.

And if they grow up together, their bond will be tight, always.

Puppy is male...not sure if kitten should be male or female, not sure how that dynamic works.

Not sure if Alpha dog and Alpha cat is good match.

I don't know.

Will call some animal person and find out I guess.

Anyways, much more to follow, with pictures of dogs progress, and cat or kitten if I get one.

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Still have puppy

Still have puppy, it's moral is doing better than mine actually.

Why?

Cause puppy has nothing to worry about, I do.

Puppy doesn't have to pay 'pet deposit', I do.

Puppy not aware of past, present or concerned about future, I am.

Puppy just has to be fed, and rubbed, loved and walked.

Puppy is doing just fine...I'm the one that's not.

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In order for me to keep puppy, to want to keep it, it's going to have to represent more, to me, my life, than just a four legged creature.

It has to become something more than just something I feed and walk.

At current point, it's just a goofy, curious about the world, chew on everything dog to me...

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Think bond has been established

Was wondering when it would occur, and it just did, can't predict when, like in any relationship.

Did today, when had pup out on porch, then for first time actually 'cared' or felt sorry for it for wanting back in.

I felt it's frustration, sadness, and that's when bond began.

When you start caring about another entity, outside yourself cares, feels, is treated, is when bond begins.

I felt sorry for pup, and let it back in, at that moment, bond began, in that now I actually care about fate of pup.

Before that moment it was a animal, now it's a 'life form' to me, with eyes, emotions, a heart, passion, a will of it's own.

Heck, I spent more money on it today, than have on self in a long time...lol

I'm invested now.

But also owning it is allowing me to meet others I would not have if not for pet, other pet owners.

Much more to follow.

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If you think you can out run a 10 week puppy, with lots of energy, forget about it



Sorry, isn't happening...

Four legs are just quicker and more effecient than 2 legs.

In the wild, dogs, wolves, can run for hours chasing prey, wearing them out, and yes, the puppy or dog you have isn't a 'wolf', but still have far more effeciant lungs, body, heart, than we humans do when it comes to running.

Unless maybe a bull dog or some other breed of dog that has been so genentically alterd that retain very few original 'wolf' traits.



Sorry, but coming home after work, walking dog for 5 minutes until it goes to bathroom, cannot, will not, ever, replace how wild dogs run in the wild.

But none the less, in modern times, better to save dog, love it, care for it, than see it put down in dog pound, or abused.

This little pup (which I'll upload pictures of soon) out ran my azz in park today...I was emberassed (or however it's spelled) (This is not school OK)

I feel so bad leaving it in kennel all day, knowing how much energy these animals build up inside.

But can't take back to original owners, as today found out they don't properly immune pups from disease and all.

If I take pup back, I'm sure it will be doomed, so now stuck with it, will get it shots this weekend.

Wish I could rescue other sisters in litter...or pride, or whatever puppy babies in a bundle called.

I guess I'm stuck with this dog...

Owners named it 'Apollo', I think I'll change name to 'Polo'...or just 'dog'.

To be continued...much more to follow...

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Reality

Some realities of owning a pet for some, not all but some.

For one, you can't be selfish or have selfish habits when you own a house pet.

And if you like things clean and tidy, not sure house pet is a good fit.

Also, if depressed, not sure if house pet nessisarily a good remedy, just depends.

Depends on what kind of depression, whether chemically based, addiction based or mentally based.

Also, owning jumpy puppy or kitten can actually make you feel worse, if depressed, in that seeing jumpy, happy about life pet that wants your attention all the time, can really 'contrast' how far removed from 'normal' your life, habits and routine have become.

And if not willing to accomidate pets hyper activity, can and will become real annoyance, that can lead to unintended or purposeful abuse.

(Mean people should never own pets)(but sadly they do)

But if not mean, yet still annoyed, one can end up prematurely getting rid of pet, rather than abuse it or be annoyed by it.

A house pet can be a blessing or a curse, depending on where one is at internally with self.

One day, you can feel hopeful, as if things will work out, the next day can feel hopeless, and plan on getting rid of pet.

One thing for sure, if keep pet, must make mental, and social adjustments or it just won't work out right.

It's all basically the same as any relationship with another human, whether own family, own small feet's, roommate, wife, spouse ect.

In order for it to work must make positive healthy adjustments.

Excuses mean you don't want it to work, why people get divorced ect.

But if can't change, can sometimes be better to let go of spouse, or pet, lover, if know down the road they'd be better in another environment.

When single, none of this matter, cause whole life is geared towards self, just come home and be left a lone.

I myself must make some serious decisions concerning this pet.

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Right now, at moment, as I sit here, not sure if I want to make adjustment for pet.

It no longer matters to me that a pet likes me, don't really see the value in that anymore.

It's one thing for me to be nice and kind to a animal, or someone else's pet, that you randomly cross in the wild or in public, it's another to bring said pet or animal into home, where now you can't just be nice, but are responsible for it's physical and moral upkeep.

That takes time, effort and enthusiasm.

Dogs, in particular, are pack animals, even in the wild they're constantly rubbing on each other, taking social ques from one another, I mean constantly, and do the same with human owner or owners.

If on a farm, can get pet, let outside, and forget about it for hours at a time, even days, but if living in apartment, forget about it.

Also, don't like the neighborhood I live in or the people I see, so walking dog is not a pleasurable thing to me, at least not here.

It's like walking the dog past goblins.

Walking past people I have no interest in socializing with.

If lived in more socially progressive neighborhood, or a more mainstream neighborhood, it might be fun, but not here, not for me.

I keep to myself and don't like to be seen by goblins, cause goblins always are scheming and have bad intent most of the time.
Even if you befriend them, still have bad intent, or some one they know does.

Not sure what I'm going to do now, with new situation.

In the past, I loved having a pet, loved being loved by a pet, now, not so much, and maybe cause so many other things are lacking in me life, other things i value more, but can't have or don't have.

One pet cannot fill that whole void alone.

If thinking about it this hard, probably shouldn't of gotten it.

It's still small enough now where could more easily find home for it, but if wait another month, will become much harder.

The window to decide is shrinking day by day.

To be continued.

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Still have puppy, and still learning more about myself (where I'm at now) because of having it.

Took it on long trip today, so dog is exhausted, sleeping, finally able to sleep without body contact with me...gooood, cause that annoys me.
I don't like when dog insists on sitting on my lap while driving, that really annoys me. I like my space when driving.

Dog is learning though, picking up on Q's, just like what it would do in the wild.

I don't hit it, don't see why I ever should, it just seems to be able to pick up on tones, my own habits ect, and learns or is learning what is acceptable and what isn't.

Still not sure if I'm better off with it, can't say that I am yet.
I don't feel any happier.

Preoccupied more yes, happier, no.

I just figure loving a dog, or a dog loving me, can't really yield much in my life right now.

It can't earn me money, and I'm already use to being alone.
It can't help out with chores, or pay bills, or get me ahead in life.

The lifestyle I live now is better suited for a pet cat, than dog, to be honest with you.
Cats leave you alone, don't chew on things, don't bark, can be left alone for days in house or apartment.

(As I wrote last sentence dog came peering around corner)

Now it's awake.

I was enjoying quiet time, I live a quiet life now when home.

In the past, people got pets to serve a purpose, to herd cattle, sheep, to guard, or other.

But right now this dog really not serving a purpose in me life, not yet.

And that's key, for it to have meaning to me, it must serve a purpose other than something I feed, have to walk, and goes to the bathroom.

And in no way shape or form does having dog make up for lack of human companionship, where as in the past It did, when I was younger, a dog filled that void, not anymore; at least not for me.

A dog is not a spouse, or son, or daughter or brother or ect, it's just a dog to me.

And taking care of it properly, simply gives me something to measure my own humanity with, I suppose.

Stay tuned

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I'll tell you what does make me a bit sad though, is when I see dog all playful, happy and content, and when I can't reciprocate it's mood, it makes me sad, not for me, but for dog.

It actually makes me feel like a monster, that I can't be as joyful and playful as puppy is all the time.

I don't ever want dog to feel I don't care about it, it's just the contrast in moods we have, makes me sad, makes me start thinking about the past, not just mine, but every ones, then I get even more sad.

Cause nothing stays the same, never, not even for the puppy, soon it will grow up, and it to will be annoyed by younger, more playful canine.

(Continued thought after closing post)

In a way, my inability to feel it's joy makes me feel like I'm neglecting the dog, even though it has no idea.

I feel I owe it to dog, to at least be happy, optimistic, and see the world anew as it does.

And maybe that's the effect having your own small feet's has on you X 10.

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Puppy



OK, tonight, maybe cause it's Friday, I don't know, but puppy seems like a friend to me.

Maybe cause weekend is here, no stress of having to leave tomorrow.

So this evening, this night, having fun with puppy, We shall see.

Whenever in vehicle, loves sitting on lap, that part I don't like...I sure wish it would out grow that need to sit on me lap.

I don't like dog sitting on me lap, not at all, I feel like it's an invasion of me privacy...I just don't like that.

But it insists on sitting on me lap...which annoys me to no end, but I don't show it, but it does.

Not sure why it thinks it has domain to me lap, has right to me lap...I just don't get that, even when shove aside, rushes back to sit on me lap...

Oh well.

Much more to follow