General Paranormal chatter about whatever

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We all have to reach that 'road', the 'crossway', and I think I have.

I see what it's like now when the devil rules over you, and it's no fun at all, zero fun, you become nothing to self and others, you become useless to self and others, as such I want my soul back.

I want to be alive and live again.

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continued from above. ⬆️⬆️

And the 'devil' can be synonymous with many things.

Bottom line is though, I want my life back, I realize now surrendering to 'nothing', will turn you into nothing, will turn you into mush.

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I'm not stupid, and I know it's not going to be easy, but I want my life back

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Wow, can't believe haven't posted in this section since 2022, wow, a whole year, over a whole year has gone by since dropped any thoughts in this section....boy how time just seems to really fly by at times.

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I was simply going to say that this evening, I myself feel like a ghost, as in detached from it all.
It's been a long day, I came onto some money, yet I don't feel happy or excited about it, I feel quite stowik about it actually.
But at least I don't have to work for a while, If I chose not to, I mean I should be thrilled, but like I said I feel nothing, not happy, not sad, not mad, just emotionally empty, like a jar with nothing in it.



Ye, emotionally, I just feel like an empty jar right now, and not sure why.

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The air mattress

I don't know, maybe it's nothing.

But over the last week or so, as my mood began to sink, and my hopes diminished, and as I began feeling the effects of alcohol again, my air mattress began deflating, not all at once, but like I'd have to reinflate it 2-4 times a day, which I found kind of odd.
Cause usually when there's a leak, something leaks all the way, not partially.

But this mattress never totally deflated, and I found that odd, more like it sagged, as if mimicking my mood or outlook.

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Well, over the last 1.5 days, I don't know, I'd like to think anyways there was a shift in me.
1. stopped drinking
2. Began eating super healthy food or foods again, even blended up some red beets last night and made a super drink, a super vegetable drink.

Long story short, the mattress, as of now, no longer leaks the way it was for the last week.
As of this morning it's holding it's air pressure.

Here's where the odd element comes into play for me...

Was that mattrass symbolically mimicking my inner mood??
The more I sagged, the more it sagged?
The more hopeless I feel, the more air leaked out of it?
And vice versa, the fact that the mattress is holding air again, and is firm, is that a sign to me that things will be OK??

I don't know, cause I've never seen anything leaking suddenlty decide to not leak, without a repair.

And I did not repair it, I was simply planning on getting a new mattress, which I didn't want to do cause a new decent air mattress runs around 60 dollars or more.

What do you thing?
Some supernatural stuff here or just some other phenomenon?