Dull Wednesday

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Dull Wednesday



I have one more day to be free and to be me, then tomorrow I have to become 'labor', dull and small, and bury my creative side.
But hey, at least I have today.
One more day to be me and to be free.

It's Wednesday...👣

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Another dull Wednesday



Another dull Wednesday, at least for me it is.
I worked today, gotta work tomorrow, and not much free time inbetween.

I need a change, but the older you get, the less energy you have to make that change occur, which often requires a new job, a new environment, which means moving, and moving can be very costly and stressful as you age, cause you have to switch over all your licenses, bills, cable, like dozens of addresses you have to change, what a mess.

Not to mention have have any businesses, then got to change all those addresses with the State, car registration, and more.

Just the idea of all those changes makes me want to stay put, but eventually I'll have to move regardless.

That aside, what a dull Wednesday.

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It's Wednesday



Is it Wednesday or Friday?
Leave it to the www.thedizzysissy.com/ to create confusion.

That aside, I do believe its Wednesday, and well, what shall I do today?
I'm off, so it's my last day of freedom.

I just need to keep my mind at peace, avoid negative people, situations, and I should be OK.

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I need a fiscal miracle in my life, I guess who doesn't right.

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I should be happy today but I feel like crap, emotionally. I feel discontent with everything.
As if nothing will ever work out, ever.
Everything feels like a burden to me right now, even the hot sun outside feels like a burden.
None the less, will force self to get up and dressed, and go do a bit of grocery shopping, which is also depressing, cause you barely buy anything and bill is 80 dollars.

I think I'm off today, hope so, cause last checked yesterday and then turned phone off, so if they switched the schedule, I have no idea, but then again, being fired or let go, to me right now wouldn't be the worst thing, might give me some badly needed spark in life, actually.

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I'm annoyed at self cause had 5 whole days off, and didn't get a thing of significance done, which tells me, outside of the job I hate, that I just don't have a life.

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Yep, it's Wednesday



It's Wednesday and I've gone a bit over 7 days without a drink.
How do I feel?
I feel pretty good actually, a tone of energy, but still not 100% of health is back.
Last week I was down, my health took a dive, probably some kind of infection, related to drinking multiple days in a row earlier, in that drinking weakens your immune system, and at my age, all it takes is one chink in the armor and well.

Some of my joints, or the nerves in or around them were inflamed, to the point could barely left my left leg up, if laying down.
So I took action and simply became 'Dr Self', and did what I had to do to get myself right again.
I can't afford to get sick or fall ill, cause I have no one to take care of me if things go south.
And I need to go ahead and finish registering with the VA hospital, something I should of done a decade ago, but I never go to the doctor so just kept putting it off, but one day, I'm sure I'll need medical care, so I better sign up now, while I can.
It's just the paperwork stuff that so annoys me.

Also, paid rent today, yuk, and some other stuff that needed fiscal attention.
Took care of some LLC stuff.
The people at legal zoom are like salespeople, so be careful what they offer you or try to scare you with by saying you need, cause they get paid on Commision, I suspect.
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For a while there was tempted to buy some beer, cause feeling so good, but talked self out of it.
Addiction is like that, the minute you feel better you convince yourself 'Oh, I can handle a few beers'...then feel like crap the next day, mentally for giving in and physically do to the effects of alcohol on body.

Anyways, since have so much energy, I'm aggressively attacking the 'to do list', and have more stuff to do and scratch off.
Sadly for me, I work tomorrow, but have been off for like 5 days...yes!

I could use another 5 days off to be honest...later and out.

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Well, it's been a good 5 days off run, got to heal self, got a few big things done, but that run ends tomorrow when report to work, to drive, and reduced to nothing more than a labor slave, a mindless compliant labor slave.
A career change is definitely in order.

That aside, I'm here, I'm healthier than i deserve to be, so let's see what happens.

Fate has taught me that I have so little control over what happens.
People think they do, but they really don't.

Fate decides everything ahead of time.

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I think today's Wednesday



I think today's Wednesday.
Anyways, started off the day strong, good moral, went shopping, but now after returning home and sitting in front of computer, all that optimistic energy has gone away.

I think there's something about sitting at home, in front of computer, being online, that just dampens the mood and spirit, for sure.
Cause I felt great when out and about, so maybe I just need to go take another drive and live life offline for a while.

Anyways, it's Wednesday, I think.

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Just a few minutes left on this October Wednesday night



It's about 15 minutes till midnight, then the day is gone, forever, never to be lived again, read about, but never lived again.

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October doesn't feel as fun to me as it used to, I think, know, it depends on who your neighbors are.
I live around very culturally dull, urban types who never celebrate or get into Halloween.

I mean with all these different cultures pouring into America, so many European traditions are dying off, and whether white, black, or Hispanic or other, we've all grown up with those traditions, if over a certain age.

But black folks, at least where I live, just aren't into stuff like Halloween, all they're into is rap music, and blunts.

I think if I had to live in a nation without whites, I'd go nuts, even though not white myself.
I just don't know if other cultures know how to have fun like whites used to.
The America of the 70's, 80's, 90's, is just dying and fading away.
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Anyways, it's Wednesday still, 7 more minutes and the day is gone, but I'll still be here.