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Post by Admin on Apr 10, 2024 14:43:19 GMT
I think it's Wednesday
Things are changing quick. I'm about to go from the world of obscure online writing, to the world of real life production projects on real sets, and working with a real life industry pro/veteran. I'm paying for it though (stupid me). As such, I have to change a lot of my mental habits, as well as physical ones. For one, no more drinking. Drinking, at least for me, totally hampers my enthusiasm for anything, and totally messes up my moods, especially the morning after you drink, and during the whole day sometimes.
And I'll start having to utilize my time way way way better, no more vain 'to do lists', that have me doing things that don't matter for squat. And I'm going to start getting back into near athlete shape, for my own sake, cause I'm going to need all the energy I can get, to get through this phase of my life.
I'm like doing a total life change, and not sure how to feel about it right now. It's one thing to wish for things, and change, when you're drunk, its another thing to actually execute those changes when given the chance, and then you have other evaluating you as well = pressure = accountability.
Anyways, time to get started on stuff, no more ducking away from unpleasant tasks. Time will tell if I'm up for the task or if I'm just a big bluffer to myself and or others.
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Post by Admin on Apr 13, 2024 1:14:41 GMT
I have a hot rod car now, a romancey one, yet it's Friday night, and I'm sitting my butt right at home. That's called age...lol
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Post by Admin on Apr 20, 2024 23:14:13 GMT
I literally feel like I'm in some alternate universe right nowI feel like I'm in some alternative universe right now. I feel distant from my current reality, in that my current reality has changed so much over the past few months, that, I don't know, not sure how my inner self is relating to it, or if at all. I mean you spend, I spent, so much of my adult life dreaming of what I really wanted to do, and then when actually start doing it, it's like a shock onto the system, the consciousness. Sounds odd, I know. Not sure what to make of it yet, and or if capable of rising up to the new occasion and actully helping self turn life around, meet new people, be thrust into new environments, challengers, and more. I wonder if anyone else has gone through the same?
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