Tuesday

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Day started off hopeful for me, ended up not so hopeful, in that I wanted to purchase a new car, but didn't



The monthly payments were just to high.

One good thing about being single is I"m not pressured to get a nicer car just to impress a partner, for if i had a romantic partner, then I'm sure my ego would of kicked into play and I would of gotten the vehicle no matter the cost to my personal finances and peace of mind.

They want you to pay like 7-8 hundred a month for these new cars, even spread over 5-6 years, are you kidding me?

I don't need a new car that bad.

I could of gotten it, with enough cash down, I could of gotten it for around 530 a month or so, but even that man, that's a lot of money.

I'd rather spend that type of money on school or online courses or something.

So anyways, my mood has kind of taken a dive since not getting the car....and I know, I know all the 'at least' sentiment.

But no matter how bad I feel now, I'll feel better in a few weeks that I don't have some 500+ payment looming around the corner.

At least I hope so.

Because of Bidens policies, all prices on cars have gone up across the board.

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And they start talking 5-7 gran down, but it seems no matter what you put down, price and payments stay the same, you'd think money down would be subtracted from over all cost of vehicle, but seems all the money you put down is just a tip for the salespeople

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All I know is my mood has taken a dive, I guess that tells me I really wanted that car pretty bad, had convinced self could afford it, I felt like a superstar today, earlier, now I just feel like a lower working class chump again.

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It's Tuesday, but I don't feel as bubbly as the Tuesday logo above.

I've come to disdain the term 'Happy _____', before any day of the week, as in Happy Tuesday or happy Monday, and it annoys the hell out of me that so many logo days of the week have 'happy' before them.

I'm not a group thinker, and it always annoys me when so many think the same, create the same stuff, and never ever consider coming up with something new!

And it's those who don't think outside the box who always seem to get all the attention, it's gross to me, cause when I meet such types face to face in real life, I literally intellectually dismantle them, literally tear them apart one stupid point at a time.

So many people are built on falsehoods, they have falsehoods about themselves, falsehoods about others, and so most build their lives on just fake beliefs, but then these fake beliefs about themselves or others become the foundation of their identity.

And it's worse when such types become managers, or influencers, cause now they project their falsehoods onto others, and sometimes turn their falsehood into rules and laws, assuming they get governmental power, or become a cop, or Judge or elected to office.

Oh well, it's Tuesday, time keeps rolling on regardless.

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Apr 12, 2022 20:07:00 GMT Admin said:

All I know is my mood has taken a dive, I guess that tells me I really wanted that car pretty bad, had convinced self could afford it, I felt like a superstar today, earlier, now I just feel like a lower working class chump again.

In conclusion to this above post.....

I did end up getting another vehicle, a used pickup truck, and only paid $3,800.00 for it.

So things worked out OK. I mean considering 3800 dollars would of been the down payment for a new car, followed by years and years of payments, I made out OK.

And now I have a used pickup truck that I can use for other things, and have, like going to the flea market and trying to sell stuff.
Having a pickup truck has opened up my world a bit more, now I don't feel so trapped, as in if have to move, I can do it myself, I don't feel as helpless.

Now I have two used vehicles, so if one breaks down, can put in the shop, and if repairs are a lot, can leave it there until have the funds, and just use other vehicle.

I think having two vehicles is important these days, especially if single.
And or if driving used vehicles.

I may not have gotten the romancey brand new Dodge Challenger I was lusting over, but considering my circumstances, I think I made out OK with getting old used pickup truck instead.

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It's Tuesday



Yep, it's Tuesday again, and I got to work tomorrow, shucks.

Just can't seem to win that lottery.

I'd do anything to be some mistress married to some wealthy man where all I had to do was stay home and take care of the mansion, I wouldn't even care if they cheated, so what, I'd be living in a mansion, driving nice cars, could fool around with the hired help, so what if the man cheats..(assuming I was a woman)

Or even if gay, and some gay dude married me, some rich gay dude marries me and wants me to stay home in their mansion?
Where do I sign up.

Anyways, just me being silly.

It's Tuesday, what meaningless tasks can I get caught up in today?

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About to pay rent

About to pay rent, sure, it's not do till tomorrow, but I work tomorrow, leave early, get home late, and so if don't do it now, while off, than it becomes a pain to squeeze in during work cycle.

Paying rent is devistating to moral, it just seems so wicked, this idea that we've all been conditioned to the idea that we have to pay for space to live in, says who?

Not god, unless you think greedy men are gods.

Rent is more like something a devil would come up with.

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Tuesday



It's Tuesday, so what.

Groundhog day to me, same o same o.

But physically I do feel better than I did yesterday cause I drank self sick on Sunday.

Didn't actually drink that much, compared to the past, but since stopped drinking so much, tolerance for alcohol has gone down, and so fewer beers has more powerful effect.

I threw up Sunday night, and felt demoralized for most of Monday and just slumped around, and now it's Tuesday and I feel much better.

I need to retool my life, easier said than done, been trying to do that for years.

I wake up today with nothing on the plate, nothing meaningful to do.

I should do something out of the ordinary and go take a early morning drive, just something to shock my normal routine of nothingness.

Ye, maybe I'll go take a drive, film stuff, take some pictures, anything to get my mind wound up again.

Welcome to Tuesday.

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Tuesday



Tuesday again already?
Can't believe I haven't posted on here in a whole week, and it's Tuesday again, a repeat of last week.

Writing and posting helps me to observe patterns in my life and in the world and or will help maybe someone in the future do the same.

And right now my pattern is I have so many days off that i get bored and start drinking, again, after I gave it up for a while.
And then I go to work and only wish I were off, then when off don't do anything.

That's a bad pattern to be in.

I have no friends and or no one who wants me to be apart of thier life, I only have a few numbers of people I only call when drunk, and bug them.

However, there is one person who does call or text, and they're a pilot of a 737...of all people, wow.

Me, nothing, them, a pilot of a jetliner, yet..whatever..life is weird like that.

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Anyways, last day off, then tomorrow I can start complaining again about being at work.
I'm stuck in a repeating vortex sick pattern.

Today is Tuesday, it's summer, and whatever.

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Tuesday



I hate tommorrow more than life itself.

It's always your or my last day off, evening off, night off, that I seem to finally find my grove, just to be interupted by the mundane servatude of work the next day, where my creative spirit totally dies and I become a zombie.

I've been nice, kind, and gentle my whole life, always followed the rules, but my gosh if following the rules means getting screwed all the time by life, I don't know.

I hate tomorrow.

I wish tomorrow would leave me the hell alone.