Tuesday

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Uncertain Tuesday



Uncertain Tuesday...the life worm is very deviant, always seems to follow you around and spoil and rot all your dreams.

The key is getting away from the worm, or those with the bad luck worm in them.

I do believe bad luck spreads like a virus.

Anyways, all that said, I think I'll get dressed, groom and go workout.
Not that I want to, but right now I think a quick workout in the park is the best thing I can do for my mind and body.

The one good thing is I've gone about 6 days without a drink, losing weight, and emotions are stabilizing, and so is general health.

Oh well, if only I could shake the worm.

It's Tuesday.

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Still here, but not been in a posting mood lately, to many other things going on.
In film school, or a film course, I should say.
My mind has just been bogged down with stuff.
I haven't been drinking as much, when you stop drinking, you really can see how destructive it is to your mind and body when you do.
I think I had just half a can of beer yesterday, just one half a can, and 2-4 hours later could still feel the sluggish, body rotting, drain you of energy, just 1/2 a can of beer had on my body and motivation, and energy level.
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Anyways, today is here, life moves on, more stuff to learn, things to fear, things to avoid, wish for and food to eat.
Welcome to Tuesday.

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Will start off the day by getting a oil change.
Money in the hole.
Not only that, but seems whenever others put hands on your vehicle, is when stuff goes wrong.
And I'm not a grease monkey, in that I don't change my own oil...can't do that at an apartment complex, and if could, still wouldn't.

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About to finally get out of bed, get dressed, and get car a oil change.
The service engine light came on yesterday, and well, I'll start with a full oil change first, and change the wipers...then I'll go get a FREE engine diagnosis at a auto store place, yes they do it for free vs auto dealerships or shops that want to charge 70-150 dollars. Hell, can even or maybe I'll buy a engine check device.
Anyways, in and out of sleep for last few hours, with the Twilight Zone playing on computer. In and out of sleep.
When you sleep with TV on, or streaming on, you really see how 'time' changes when asleep..how 10 seconds can seem like 1 hour, and vice versa, and you measure it by how far a episode on TV went buy between in and out of sleep.
Mainly though, it seems time slows down when I'm dreaming.
But when sleep without dreaming, then time seems to fly by.
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Anyways, let me stop stalling the day, get up, turn on phone, get dressed, and head to oil change place.

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It's Tuesday, again



Time is just moving way to fast, as of late...I don't like it.
Time is corrosive...period...time is destructive...period.

Freeze or stop time and all evil goes away...what about good, does good go away also if you freeze time?

Not really, cause good is just really 'safe being'.

A monster cannot hurt you without the forward movement of time.
Cancer cannot spread without the forward movement of time.

Anyways, time certainly not waiting on me today, so let me move on and get some stuff done.

It is the summer of 2024, July 2nd and most of all it's Tuesday.

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I do believe it's Tuesday



I do believe it's Tuesday.
What a odd day for me, internally. It all begins internally, and our internal mood is projected outward.

That being said, all day I've kind of had a feeling of doom and dread. It may be because I drank Sunday night, was tempted to again this evening but settled on a Big Mac meal instead. Going to McDonald's satisfied my desire to go out and do something reckless.


I really didn't accomplish much today at all, just wasn't in the mindset to...just not.
I mean if today's mood was do to my drinking on Sunday night, than wow.
I've been trying to stop drinking altogether lately, which makes when I do drink have more of a bizzar effect on me.
When your system is clean and you're healthy, that's when booze hits you the hardest.

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Anyways, it's Tuesday...Kamala Harris has chosen a running mate, things in the middle east are heating up between Israel and everyone else, the Ukraine was continues on, Trumps running mate is JD Vance (bad choice)...stock markets not doing so well, interest rates are high, Boeing has a space capsule stranded in space at the space station. And the Olympics are in progress.

And most importantly, I'm still an adult version of Charlie Brown, nothing but rocks in my bag.

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All dressed up and no place to go, or no place I feel like going.
Was going to wash car, but already fell out of that mood.

I really don't need anything.
I haven't exercised yet, and don't feel like it either.

I like to step out of this place at least once a day, but it's so hot out, just not sure what stepping out would achieve today.
Plenty of food in fridge.

I have energy though, and need to blow some of that energy or I'll go nuts.

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Time to get up, get dressed and face this dreaded day



Not sure why I feel so dern grim today, but I do...moods are like that I suppose.

Gotta get dressed, have some coffee, then prepare for a cross town trip to go sit down and be bored to death by meaningless chatter with some whatever.

I hate wasting my time with people I'm not learning from, can't have ____ with and who just bore me.
Today would be mine, had they not called yesterday, I should not have agreed to go there, but was in a better mood at the time...stupid me.
If I were honest I'd just call and say 'Can't come, something came up'...

My showing up there will benefit them more than me...it will soothe their soul, their conscious, but not mine. And I'll leave there knowing as little about said subject as I had before arriving.

Anyways, let me stop depressing myself.

It's Tuesday, whether I like it or not.

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Tuesday



It's Tuesday and another hurricane is brewing in the gulf area of Florida...but where I stay will just get the outer bands...darn...yes darn.

I've been through a few hurricanes by now and can say other than taking a direct hit, I like the outer bands blowing through the area and cleaning up the muggy southern air.
It's like a constant wind that doesn't stop, and it just blows all the smog and pollution away...and everyone usually chills during hurricanes, criminals chill, the government chills, places close down...I just find it very relaxing.

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Well, the useful part of this day's about over for me...it's almost midnight.

Not much accomplished, as usual.
Had one phone meeting for film school, 'pitch' rehersal, if you want to call it that.

The schools instructors really kind of such, if I'm honest about it.
But money already paid, so I try to make the most of it.

Anyways, this Tuesday is pretty much in the books now.

There's a hurricane approaching the gulf coast...the Israeli Hezbolah war is still raging...

Bret Farbs, the former Green Bay QB has announced he has Parkinsons.

What else?

Migrants continue to take over cities, and blacks in those areas are fed up, many are vowing to vote for Trump....we shall see.

And with that, I bid this Tuesday, Sept 24th or 2024 a farewell.

This day will never ever in time or history, occur ever again...later.