Monday

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Monday, what a all out crummy day for me



What an all out crummy day for me, it's my fault.
I mean no one wants to feel crummy, but drinking to much will do that to ya, and other things.
I'm just not very happy with the next few weeks, nothing seems fun to me anymore.

I hate my job, and for the last few weeks when off, have been helping others do stuff, which takes away from my own plans.
And I have to go to a funeral viewing here soon, on my day off, that sucks.
I hate viewing people who are dead, makes no sense to me at all, not one bit, I find it creepy actually.

Anyways, seems as of late, the devils atop me, and I'm on the bottom.

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It's Monday



I've been home and inside all day, haven't even got dressed or groomed, but may slip out to the store real quick, for what else, other than some beer.

What a bum life I live, as if trying to hide from reality.
I live as if 16 again, as if I'm my own parents and caretaker, and bread winner, and then when home I revert to being a 16 yr old kid.
When 16, life is simple, at least it was for me, so maybe that's why I'm stuck there in my head.

For years, while in prime, I tried stepping up, just a lot of wasted energy and lost dreams, so why bother anymore, I have no one to be mature for.

It's Monday, I wish the day would never end cause I most certainly have no need, zero need, for tomorrow.

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My moral is down today, all I want to do is sit, and pretend that everything is donkey dory and OK.

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Monday



Yep, it's Monday, Monday is scary day, Monday is when the curtains of safety are withdrawn and all the ugly administrative state wakes up.
It's when all the ugly talk radio people are back on their shows stirring up emotions to their audience and deliberately making people irate for ratings.

Monday is when bills are due, and you can no longer hide.

The weekend shields of from a lot of stuff that then Monday brings to the table.
But at least I don't usually have to work on Mondays, so that's one plus, that aside, I will still get smeared by my own personal reality, I always do, and I never ever really win.
I get by, but I never ever seem to score a sizable victory.

Everyone around me is flaky.

That being said, I will get up today out of bed or my perch, and I'll do a few things, try to make positive change in my life, but in the end, none of it will work, or it'll cost to much.
I think I was just born to get beat every day, and then write about it.

Anyways, it's Monday.

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Right now eating oreo icecrem, and a small slice of carrot cake and watching the twilight zone on amazon...just being a pig, and not really caring...life is short, sometimes you just gotta enjoy the moment you're in.

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Monday



It's Monday, I'm here, and that's about it...what else can I say?
The world is in chaos right now....my future will be in chaos unless I figure something out.

Employment is such a waste of time to me...waste of time and energy, yes, of course I work, but I never get ahead.

I need to get another RV.

Poor people really are suckers.

Anyways, my mind is scattered right now.

I'm glad I don't live in the middle east or Africa.

Oh well, time to get on with the evening.

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Another Monday wasted.
I really need to get my act together and start scheduling stuff, go to events, meetings, join some clubs, anything to get me out of my sit at home funk.

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Oh my gosh, it's Monday!



Oh my gosh, it's Monday!! ugg!

Oh well, every day I'm alive, it's usually the day that ends up atop me.
I always seem to get beat up by life, period.

I never seem to be able to make decisions that get me ahead in life, instead it's like my path in life is walking through mud, or quick sand.

Anyways, that aside, I still try to maintain a fun loving spirit, for my own sake, more so than others.

It's Monday...isn't there a football game on tonight, Monday night football?

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Scared Monday



It's Monday and I feel scared, scared of everything, including myself, and or my ability to handle pressure and fear put upon me by life.

Also, fridge not working right, which means I have to call maintanance people, which means..

1. I have to get dressed and groom (yuk)

2. I have to clean the kitchen

3. I have to clean the front room, and any other room that looks junky that they might see into.

It's basically work, cause I'm the type, if come into my place, my place reflects me, and I don't like people coming in and seeing a messy place.

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What a hassle.
Then next week I've gotta travel, and super nervous about it, cause people are mean now, just look at the headlines.
It seems everyone has 199 reasons to hate you now, I mean just for existing and bothering no one, people still hate you, or so it seems.

And it doesn't help that a drank yesterday, stupid me, I should of known better, going that route never helps anything.

( By the way, I hate so called 'gun violence town hall forums, that some cities hold...why do I hate those?
Cause everyone show up except those criminals actually committing the crimes and shootings on the streets, so what good do those 'gun violence' meetings have when those shooting people up don't attend those meetings?
They're nothing more than 'feel good' 'rah rah' meetings for elected officials, what a waste of time...cause if want to stop shootings, than lock the shooters up, plain and simple)

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Anyways, got a bit distracted there by the radio.

It's Monday, I'm here, and well, hating the day so far.

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Rosalin Carter just passed away, she went into hospice care a few days ago, yet Jimmie Carter, her husband, has been on or in hospice care for the last 5 months...and he's still alive...wow.