Diary of a ghost

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Terrible day today



Terrible day today, drank the wrong combo of drinks yesterday and felt sick all day long, like hang over type sick, like deplited of all energy and enthusiasm type of sick, thus wasted a perfectly good 'off day', and now tomorrow have to 'hit it' again, work that is.

I did it to myself, I realize now never, or I"ll never combine expresso and liquor...
But it was like in a small glass bottle I bought..'Van Gogh' or something like that, it messed my world up, that's for sure.

Not while drinking, but rather the after morning/day effect, I'm so thankful I didn't have to work today or I'd of been screwed.

My weekends end during mid week, either on Wed or Thursday, but do to Holiday season been starting on Wed.

Can't wait for Holiday season to be over so I can go back to only working 3 days a week, that's all I need or want, and then will be getting tax returns soon also.

Plus maybe another check from the Feds, after Trump chastized Congress and Senate for only giving Americans a measly $600.00 while sending billions to over seas countries and special interests.

I'm going to miss Trump, he seems to be the only politician left on either side that actually cares about the small person, Trump will be so missed by us common types.

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I guess I to am now running with the devil

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Just rebel...sorry...whether biker or inner city, just rebel



And sorry, but what happened on Jan 6th, to me should be turned into national Holiday.

Cause to me, those in D.C. aren't looking out for citizens anymore.

Just ordinary people to me hurled into important positions.

I don't exist to them, as such they don't exist or matter to me.

I'm for the rebels.

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I hate all D.C. politicians...they're snakes...

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Going to go get a local background check done on self tomorrow for a volunteer position I'm seeking.

I'm 100% sure I will pass with flying colors, cause if had done something wrong, ever, all Government agencies know where I'm at do to jobs I've applied for , credit checks, this and that, so it's not like I'm hidden.

Cops, the Police can come get me anytime if they think I've done anything wrong or even if falsely accused of doing anything wrong, they can just come get me, but they don't cause like I always say...I walk a straight line.

So people who are afraid of me, or hesitant to get to know me ect, it's do to 'fiction', stuff in their own minds and or whispers, but none of it grounded in reality.

Heck, I probably have a cleaner civic record than most Senators and Congressmen.

In Fact, a Senator and or Congressman would be bored as hell living my life, they'd want to party and go out and have sox way more than I do instead of sitting at home all the time as if sidelined by life.

That being said, you just never know now days when it comes to computers and data banks, and there's always that faint fear that when go to PD and request background check, there's always that fear that name will get mixed up with another, or someone will type in wrong number, be off by just one number and match you with someone you're not.

And there's always that fear that you won't be going home, that two officers will like open the door, one behind you, the other in front..(not directly)..and they'll say, 'we're placing you under arrest for an outstanding warrant'...

Now even though you know it's not you, you know how officers are, they have to feel they're in control, so you let them handcuff you, to put them at ease, before explaining its not you and to double check spelling..ect.

Cool officers would do just that, but if you're at precinct with poorly trained ones, they might not...and even though innocent, they'd still drag you downtown, book you in jail, and the horror would begin.

Sure you'd be out a week later, but the mental damage caused by the ordeal would last forever.

Especially if live alone, have pets that need feeding, or maybe left food on the stove, heater on, ect.

But hopefully none of that will happen tomorrow or whenever I get local background check for volunteer job I'm seeking to fill.

But ya just never know...will make a good book if it does happen.

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Tax returns this year

I submitted my 2020 tax sheet to accountant so they can get me a refund, I've used them for the last 2-3 years and they're greeaaat!, as Tony the Tiger likes to say.

But with all the Government spending this year, I wonder if that will effect the size of refund?

I mean the Gov can't just keep printing money or the economy will collapse in on itself and the dollar bill will become useless like the Peso.

That aside, if get back what I usually do, I'll be sitting good, or what I call 'working class less than a year from being broke' type of good.

Meaning if didn't work for a year, I'd deplete all my savings.

To me if you can't survive a year without working than you're broke!

On the other hand, if you can sustain your current lifestyle for 5 years or more without generating any new income, than you're in a good spot.

That being said, I've have to say 90% of Americans are broke.

Sometimes I look at ATM reciepts that people discard on or by machine, and let me tell you...



What I see on receipt from adults, people in their 30's, 40's and older, is balances of less than $500.00..I'm talking adults living basically check to check in their 40's and above.

To me, for very decade of age you are you should have that amount, at minimum, saved up.

So if 40 years old, should have a minimum of $40,000 in the bank and so forth.

I minimum, so I guess that would be saving $10,000 every decade or 1000 every year.

Seems easy, but hardly anyone in the regular working class does it.

Oh well, let me stop before I get depressed thinking about all the money I've wasted over the years.

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Back when 'Black' women, or those considerd as such, were cool as hell...those days long gone now, sadly



I'm from like the Seattle/Tacoma area, Spokane area originally, back then black women were very special and rare, and usually mixed...but in the Dark South, not even.

I miss the whole 90's black woman vibe thing, when black women were thin, cute and just fun to be around.

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Started off feeling pretty grey earlier

I seem to live around 'dead people', no activity, nothing, totally quiet boring and dull types, totally reserved, no communication or nothing, it's kind of creepy.

I mean I like quiet, but not so quiet you can't even say hello to your neighbor.

Wasn't like that at all when I first moved here, people were way more outgoing, now everyones a introvert.

They come home, lock their doors, and hide for life, and never check on their neighbors...

I'm still some what in my prime, I mean I'd like to live around others who are a bit more upbeat.

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Hopefully you're having a better day than this poor soul



The closet monster.

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I must resist buying a new car



I totally must resist buying a new car, like this brand new Pacer here...cause would be a waste of money for me.

But may consider trading in current used car, which is paid for, for slightly cooler, but still, used car...I don't know.

Newer sometimes does inspire, but still, where would I go?

As it is, I go no where, and having cooler car, would that make me want to get up and out more?

Not in high school anymore, so it's not like back in the day when would get newer or cool car and cruise around hoping to pick up a date...those days are long gone and behind me.

But still...

I just don't see myself as 'cool' anymore, if anything I'm an aging geek, fighting for reasons to stay relevant in today's world.