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Post by Admin on Jun 18, 2024 4:22:33 GMT
I'm older now, I'm not every ones cup of tea, for sure.
But why torment myself by being in an environment where the chemistry sucks.
When younger, eager eyed and stupid, sure, but I'm older now, as such I don't feel like paying dues anymore.
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Post by Admin on Jun 18, 2024 4:27:34 GMT
I sleep on a air mattress now, on the floor, after losing last place to apt fire.
I probably should get a regular bed, but one reason I don't is cause don't want this place to start feeling like home, cause it's not.
Sleeping on air mattress reminds me that all this is temporary, cause my next residence just very well could be a RV camper, a used one, so why get used to sleeping in a nice comfortable bed, if after 5 or less months, not going to have it.
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Post by Admin on Jun 18, 2024 4:28:56 GMT
It's that time of the early morning, about 30 minutes past midnight, where sure, I'm awake, my body has energy, but my mind just doesn't want to do anything, so I just mentally veg out.
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Post by Admin on Jun 18, 2024 4:31:52 GMT
I drank a few beers earlier, but like the effects have already wore off, for the most part...why? Cause I'm also getting back in decent shape. And I almost felt like taking a quiet late night drive in my sports car, still might...but not much to see around this area other than prostitutes and drug addicts roaming the streets like zombies.  |
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Post by Admin on Jun 18, 2024 4:35:12 GMT
Also, best not to make major decisions until morning...better to sleep on it, and see if feel the same way the next day.
No worse feeling than making a decision while drunk, half drunk, or just in a weird mood, at night, then waking up the next day and regretting it.
Whatever decision I make, I want to make it of sound mind, not a drunk mind or sleepy mind or moody mind, but of a sound mind, cause then I can live with it, the consequences that is.
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Post by Admin on Jun 18, 2024 4:52:19 GMT
Oh well, time to lay back down, sat up for a while to type, that maybe sitting up in a chair would motivate me to want to study or do something useful to self, nope, I was wrong...
Lately though, when wake up in the morning, all my browsers are closed and I'm offline...
I heard something about microsoft windows could be doing that, either way it sucks, cause then gotta sign back into everything again.
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Post by Admin on Jun 19, 2024 5:16:40 GMT
Well, guess I should lay back down now...
Watching the 6th installment of 'Bad Ben'...
My body deserves, deserved, a spirit better than mine to inhabit it.
It's not that I'm bad, but rather the spirit within this body just didn't get all out of life it should have.
There are people 1/3 may age who have gotten more out of life than me.
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Post by Admin on Jun 20, 2024 4:44:19 GMT
Bad Ben 6, the way in
For some reason, The Mr Magoo like character in these movies is addictive to watch.
To watch them battle ghosts and spirits, while being serious, is of itself kind of comical...yet scenes in these movies will scare you at times, for sure.
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Post by Admin on Jun 20, 2024 4:53:17 GMT
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Post by Admin on Jul 1, 2024 13:49:09 GMT
How do I feel today?
I don't know, my life still pretty much sucks, but it's sucked for the last 2 decades, yet I'm still here and still trudge on, I suppose.
That aside, about to finish off this taco bell left over burrito, then just get up and out, as in take the trash out and exercise a bit.
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