Moods

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Sometimes I feel so tired, and then realize still have so far to go



I'm tired, tired of losing, tired of making the wrong decisions in life, tired of being alienated from caring people, and instead cursed to have uncaring people in my life circle.

I'm tired of drinking, and the after effects of, I'm tired of not being able to focus on stuff long enough to accomplish anything meaningful.
I'm tired of always picking up after myself, I'm tired of my job, I'm tired of not being loved.

I'm tired of a lot of things, tired of being poor, tired of not being able to help those few I still do care about.
Tired of social medias bias, tired of political corruption, tired of cars, traffic, industrial noise.

I'm just tired, yet still have a ways to go, whatever am I going to do??

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I'm going through one of the oddest mood phases of my life.
It's a mood based of feeling like I'm getting closer and closer to a cliff, the cliff of life I suppose.

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I'm having a real hard times of things today, myself, my mood.
I feel I have nowhere else to go, emotionally.

Not sure how to leave this mood behind, or what to do with it while in it.
I don't feel happy, sad, mad, nothing, I'm just here....alone (which I don't mind, used to it I suppose)

I've gotta fix this, even if it means drinking a few beers to just move my mood onto a different spot.

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I can already tell this is going to be one of the worst New Year's eves for me ever, as such, I will start drinking now, to ease the pain.

When wronged, then other party hangs up, rather than stick around for correction, that can play on your emotions.

What I call 'smear and run'...true love sticks around for a resolution, but manipulative types always smear and run, like the demonic cowards they are, be they family or otherwise.

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But the good thing about social media, is you can get your grievence out there, one way or another, in other words, the conversation just doesn't end simply cause someone wants it to.

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Lately, I don't always feel so happy



Lately, I don't always feel so happy, it's like ugly reality is beginning to close in on me.
Not sure what to do about it, the world is or can be viscious when you don't have resorces.

I've gotten comfortable to just living, and being left alone, for the last decade or so, and no, do to the cost of living, well, who knows.
Life just doesn't stop and stand still for anyone.
I have so failed to get out and make new social contacts, friends, anything.

And now I'm reaping that, big time...I basically have no one, other than a few text type of friends.
But text friends are the types you never really hang around with.

Oh well, no ones going to feel sorry for me, or care if I fall, get depressed, whatever, I'm pretty much already dead to the world.

That being said, at least I'm still alive on here and posting goofy, moving, posts.

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Night eats the world, movie (is how I so feel at times being alone down here on this planet)



Nough said, will elaborate later when more awake.

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Not in the most positive mood right now.
2 weeks ago, things were near perfect in my life, now, hmm.

Funny how quick things can change.
It's as if some of us, maybe even many of us, just weren't meant to have peaceful lives.
I don't like this world.

There's a lot of ugliness in this world, some are shielded from that ugliness, but many are not.

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Phones off, just don't feel like talking to anyone right now. I have so much to get done over the next few days.
I'm not working right now, but schedule is still very full, full of B.S.

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In a really spaced out mood right now, on this Memorial day night.
Just spacing off, and I feel energized, but not really all that happy.
I did drink a few beers earlier...not sure what's going on with my body, at my age, who knows.