Wasted days and wasted nights

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I have to go to a safety meeting in a few hours, it's only once a month, but feels so disruptive to my 'off time'.
Cause yes, I'm off today, but you really can't plan anything until after that meeting.

Oh well.

Today's truck drivers totally reflect today's generations, no personalities, many are urban women, people, who just totally have flat personalities since raised on social media and don't know how to interact with others...it's like being in a room of robots, emotionally flat people.

Drivers aren't the loving fun types they were decades ago when everyone had a CB radio, thus had to interact with others.
Drivers today live in their own social bubbles do to cell phones, and music ect.

[Admin]

Today's generation has destroyed, what use to be known as trucking.

Now it's just a job, ran by computers and AI...there is no personality in trucking anymore, just drivers who lack social and communication skills.

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It sucks that even when you're off from work, you still wake up thinking you're late to work.

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Today is for sure one of those days/mornings, where just totally do not feel like driving.
Unlike other jobs, where you can show up, and then 'skate', hide out in the bathroom, smoke break, this break, whatever.
Well with trucking, once you start that engine and begin driving, there is no skating or slacking.
You have to be focused the whole long, 4-5 hundred mile trip, or stops or ect....and that can be very draining, just ask any driver.

It will drain you more or less, or you'll notice it more or less, depending on how much your heart is into it...but if not into it, you'll feel the full drain.

[Admin]

I absolutely feel defeated right now, just got in, then see where tomorrow I have to drive over 500 miles, round trip, but still that's a lot of mind numbing, unhealthy miles to drive.

'Get another job', is what a dork would say.
What job?
Driving jobs pay decent, and regardlesss I'm going to need a income with prices on everything going up, gotta love greedy capitolist.

What a nightmare America is beginning to turn into for the normal working class types, slowly but surley, America is becoming a nightmare for those who just want to make a honest living, come home, be left alone and pay bills.

Now that's not good enough anymore for more and more people, is why the ranks of homelessness keeps growing and growing.

[Admin]

Also, because I don't have any love in my life, it just makes what I do even more mundane.
It's one thing if feel you're doing it for a purpose, and have support, are married, ect, but when alone, all by yourself, and no one to talk to while on shift, it just feels even more mundane and mindless, as if in a cage or something all by yourself.

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Maybe I need to get a portable CB radio again, at least that way, like days of old, can make small talk with others, and not feel so alone out there, but these newer drivers, they don't even know what a CB radio is anymore.

[Admin]

Working around drivers now is like working around dead people

1. Most now days, seem to be foreign, speak another language, and cannot relate to the old style trucking culture or mindset.
Now it's just every individual employee for themselves.

2. Many, or just older dud types, post romanceual type of dull men, with dull standard haircuts and who totally lack any sense of style and flair anymore.
You can tell they're not the types that go out to clubs, or even bars, they all seem like they're just castrated now, and very anti social, at least when in the trucking environment.

3. The newer women drivers are just as socially inverted, everything takes place over the cell phone, drivers don't engage with one another like days of old, we're all strangers to each other now, either do to culture, language or age or generational difference.

It's just depressing to be out there now if a social type.

[Admin]

Another long 500 + mindless sickening drive tomorrow.
Driving long distances like that is so very bad for your health, especially as you age.

Maybe driving is more fun if in a car, a sports car, or SUV, ect, but in a commercial vehicle it's not fun and it's a lot more stressful.

added thoughts:

One good thing about tomorrow though, and that is it'll be a 'hot' news day since Trump, the former President, got indited by a lunatic DA in New York.
So hopefully listening to different talk shows will help make the time pass quicker.

[Admin]

For the first time in a long time, I just don't feel to thrilled about my own future at the moment.