Wasted days and wasted nights

[Admin]

Apr 4, 2024 6:27:51 GMT Admin said:

I mean what do I do with the rest of my life, go a different path or get, yet again, just another dull, mundane trucking gig?



This is what I really want to do, go to film school, it's what I should of done a decade or more ago, if more focused and motivated and determined.

I need a job, a career, where going forward my creative talents are rewarded and appreciated and used.
In trucking, there is no need for creativity, you just obey the boss, the company, and watch dull, mindless training videos that you've seen for decades. There is no creative outlet in trucking, unless you're one of those custom truck types who likes to spend 10's of 1000's of dollars customizing your truck; but that's if you own it. If a company driver you cannot do that.

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Yes, I came into a little money recently, not a lot, just enough where can relax for a while, if I so chose...and is why I've been thinking so hard these last few weeks, cause I don't want to make the wrong decision like I have so many other times in my past.
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I mean yes, I've already applied for a staffing trucking job, which means you work on temporary assignments, ect....but haven't even looked at response yet, which means I'm torn on whether to go back to work immediately, or take some time off to think and explore other options.
I'm not old enough to retire, yet old enough to not want to just go work yet another mundane trucking job where you're never appreciated for all your years of service.

You have to love trucking in order to put up with all the hassles of it...the traffic, the mechanical breakdowns, the snarky shippers and receivers, who all treat you like a nobody, a dumb mindless nobody, as well as dispatch, they treat you like you're brainless as well.

What I really need is a RV = no lease or high rent = mobility and flexibility.
A RV and of course a tow behind vehicle or vehicles, maybe a midsized truck and a scooter, and pedal bike.

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My plan was to get some land, and just live on it, but cheap land means remote areas, which unless working from home means long commute to work or job.
I don't know...lot's to think about right now, cause I can't really say a new chapter has begun in my life until I actually do something completely different going forward...
Are there risks involved, yes...but the above film school seems really thorough and hands on...and that's where the last of my passion is, cause with whatever few years I have left on earth, if not doing what I love, than what exactly am I doing?

To be continued...

This is something I really could see myself doing.

[Admin]

Major decision to make in less than 15 minutes

In 15 minutes, a guy with a lot of 'pull' in the entertainment industry will be calling me back, to see if I want to go forward with a film/production learning opportunity...it's not free, but the course opens up a lot of doors and connections for someone like me that I could spend the next 20 years in trucking just rotting away around industry nobodies.

But again, it costs, but there's also a cost to not following your dreams, maybe your last one ever on earth.

Years of trucking kind of makes you a talker and not a doer.
Years of trucking makes you lazy and complacient and makes you use to getting a secure pay check, but while always whining about it.

Well now, I can buck my own trend and pattern, and try to actually do something to make a difference.

(Less than 8 minutes now before they're suppose to call)

I can end this life of lonely isolation by trying something new, by getting into a career field where relationships are everything, or I can continue down this road of desolate driving, and more wasted days and wasted nights...
To be continued when call is over...we shall see.

[Admin]

Maybe it's time I close down this thread or section, in that my life has indeed made a major turn recently.

Not driving at the moment, in a film school, newer cooler car, first Production set on Saturday.
No more wasted days and night, no more lonely long driving shifts, at least not for now.

All the years I gave to trucking, and in the end...I don't know.
I mean at least it has always paid my bills.

[Admin]

I think this chapter of my life can close down for a while



This chapter of my life is not closed.
Hopefully no more wasted days and wasted nights. I have to start looking to my new future now, what's left of it.
I'm in film school now, things are changing quickly.
Every second of my day has purpose now, assignments, reading, meeting new people, talking on the phone.
No more long dragged out trucking shifts, where people could care the less about your creative side...or I should say the industry doesn't care about your creative side.

It's a different pace of life for sure.
Anyways, the story will continue on other pages throughout this blog forum, just not here for a while.
And with that, this section here is closing down, what a run it was.