Wasted days and wasted nights

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What I miss least about OTR driving is always having to use public restrooms.
There's just something odd about having to take a dump, at a rest area or truck stop, with a complete total stranger right next to you in a another stall doing the same thing.

Actually, I prefer rest area bathrooms over truck stop ones, cause rest area bathrooms tend to be way better ventilated.

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Keeping moral up as a driver, can be hard these days, fitness and side hobbies are key, and love and support from your friends and family, if so blessed to have them

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Finally home, and off work for the next 4 days.
I come home feeling so gloomy.
I work in a gloomy environment I suppose, always alone, even when at work.

Although I have kind of met someone, but that's no good if all they do is bring their own issues into my life.
I wish I had never become a truck driver, I'd have such a different social life, would have acccomplished so much more in life, would have met so many different exciting people.

Truckers, these days, just aren't exciting people anymore.

Well, I'm home now, gotta settle in.

Been approved to get a Dodge Challenger, but the payments, wow, so have till Monday to decide.

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I have to work today....well, I don't have to do anything, but I'm scheduled to work today, and because I need the income, I will report to work as scheduled.
If I didn't need the income, I'd never ever report to this job...is that better put?

Anyways, after today, I'm off for 4 days in a row, is why I tolerate this job and the long days, as depressing as they can be.
Administrators, talk radio hosts, paper pushers, ect, have no idea what it's like to labor into older age.

It's why jerk offs like Mike Pence, former VP, and current candidate, think it's a good idea to raise the retirement age, cause people like him don't labor for a living, all they do is shuffle people, have meetings, write books, appear on radio and TV and get paid, and they get elaborate pensions...but he, they, don't dig ditches....big difference.

Anyways, ye, gotta do some driving today, down to Lakeland, FL and back.
Then when I get back, I'll be to exhausted to do anything, even though it's Saturday.

At my age, you really don't want to do much of anything...actually I take that back, it totally depends on who's in your life.
If you have fun people in your life, a large loving family, then sure, you always want to do something....but when alone, just going out into the night all by yourself, not really.

Maybe I need some Viagra, so I can pretend I'm 23 again, and prowl the streets as I would have when way younger.
Although for my age, I still look pretty young, but admittedly I'm not as horney as I used to be, and when not driven by lust, you're driven by cautious reluctance.

Anyways, I have a few more minutes before have to leave for work.
Think I'll go to the bathroom and read my bathroom book 'Killing the mob', by Bill O'Reilly.

[Admin]

Not the best day, for sure, mood wise

Days usually start off with me in a decent mood, when at work and driving that is.
But I just don't think people were meant to labor or drive more than 8 hours a day, after that mood can really change, depending on environment.

Is why I usually come home just feeling 'spent', depressed, or my mood is just sour, or dampened.

But again, I work these longer days, or hours, cause usually get 3-4 days off afterwards.
But is it worth it if not happy?

I mean even with 3-4 days off in a row, a lot of drivers still quit, for various reasons, not enough money, this, or that.
It's a lonely job, you don't really interact with anyone.
You can work a whole shift, and not talk to a soul.
And the warehouses we drive up into, are all done by automation now or someone comes over a speaker phone.
It's just a cold, sterile, environment.

If had to do it for more than 3 days a week, I'd of quit long time ago.
I've only got one life, not going to spend it being miserable, not even for a job.
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Anyways, one more day to go, boy how time fly's when finally get home.

[Admin]

Un sung hero's of the road, who never get recognize for working hard



Instead we worship celebrities, talk show hosts, Ivy league types who have no idea what real work is.

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It's Friday, just got in, and feel depleted on the inside.
It's late, not much else I can do tonight.
Goodnews is, I'm off for at least 3 days in a row.

I just hope I don't start drinking during that time off.

No big news today other than 2 supreme court rulings on debt forgiveness and some ruling about if religious, don't have to use your creative business skills to serve another who has a lifestyle you don't agree with.

I wonder if that'll spill into interracial relationships?

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Been off for 5 days, and my mood stinks today, for some reason.
Probably because even while off, safety texted some stuff about 'smart drive' BS score, and it ust kind of made me snap.

It's an emotionally sterile work envirnment as it is, and to know that the only feedback you get is from some ai robot, or scoring system, just kind of rubbed me the wrong way.

But what really rubbed me the wrong way was when the text was like 'you have 2 weeks to get your score down'...
That's what did it, that's when I snapped and responded in email and text.

Told them I'm not changing a dam thing, and that I'd gladly put my 22+ years of having CDL up against smart drive, any day of the week.

I've just had it with how these large companies totally strip you, the worker, the driver, of any and all of your humanity, and just want you to become these mindless compliant brain dead donkeys.

Well not me.
I told them I'm not changing crap, and told them that smart drive isn't my god.
And that if I can't drive in a way that makes me comfortable and relax, oh well, I'll gladly move on, but they'll have to let me go, cause this time, and for the first time in my life, I want unemployment checks.

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Ye, there comes a time in your life where just getting a weekly paycheck from ob, just isn't enough to motivate you anymoe.
It's not like it's a paycheck that's getting you ahead in life, it's more of a sustaining paycheck...that slowly eats away at your motivation and drive.

I think quitting current ob, or I should say being let go *this time I won't quit, I want unemployment, which I've never ever received in my life, but this time I want it.

At my age, why should I be eager to just rush into yet another labor intense trucking job?
I could use a few months off to ust replan my life...
I don't know.

Feel like I'm barely hanging on anymore, I mean not sure what's supposed to keep me motivated going forward anymore.

[Admin]

I do know this, management, any management, that thinks they can treat you like some soulless donkey, and treat them like deities, well with me, they're mistaken, especially when they don't pay you enough to prosper, want to cut back on bonuses, ext, yet still want you to kick their azzes...ye, OK.