Wasted days and wasted nights

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I totally love only working 3 days a week, it's as if already living a semi retired life, even though not retired...this way can save body, preserve body, youth and health so that if live long enough to actually retire, hopefully I'll be in decent shape, but even that's not garunteed...so the way I figure, may as well live retired before retiring cause no garuntee that when do retire health will be good, or that even this nation of ours will still be a nation, the way Joe Biden keeps writing executive orders that seem to favor criminals and chaos.

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No worse job to have, and not feel well, than driving...

Like driving with a cold, a head cold or headache, or stomach ache, or any ailment where not quite sick enough to call in, but sick enough to feel every minute of job, every bounce on the road.

And unlike a desk job, if driving a large semi truck, you can't 'relax', or major mistake could happen.

To drive a truck, you basically have to be almost 'athletic fit', to do job properly, many don't realize that, but the more fit you are, healthier you are and stay, the easier the job.

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Drivers are getting worse and worse by the year, month, day and minute



This is why I just don't like truck drivers anymore, I drove for years in the snow and ice and yes, even in Wyoming, and this never occurred during my OTR years, cause back then drivers just way more aware and we used CB radios to communicate real time hazards to one another, but today all they do is talk on cell phones to wives lovers or whomever, and are never 'in the moment'..

I mean look how these drivers just continue to slam into pile of vehicles.

And if can't see, than why not slow the hell down??!!...duh!

And it's only going to get worse with all these new automatic trucks coming out which allow people to get CDL jobs who have no business in h-ll driving a semi truck.

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This one thing here is what made trucking so special in the past, the CB radio, which hardly anyone uses anymore



This one thing here is what so made trucking so special in the past, and that is the C.B. radio...why?

Cause it kept truckers, drivers, in real current time communications with one another.
The C.B. radio was like a party line, of sorts, for those old enough to remember what a telephone party line was, when you'd pick up phone in your house, and here neighbors conversation..ect.

C.B. radios are what built the trucking culture of the past, are what allowed 'rookies' to learn the ropes from the old timers, is what made drivers accountable for their actions.

And is what helped so pass the time when driving long boring overnight routes, not to mention all the base station guys who'd always be shouting out stuff, every city had a few major base station guys, old time drivers remember that, new drivers haven't a clue.

C.B. radios kept drivers bonded and closer to one another, and even safer in that drivers would alert other drivers to back ups, detours, road hazards ect.

But now days, since most drivers don't use C.B. radios, you see videos of stupid drivers slamming into traffic back up while on their cell phones!

Some companies even discourage the use of C.B. radios now, such companies obviously ran by imbosals who never drove before.
Nothing more valuable to a driver than real time info, and C.B. radios kept many drivers glued to the 'now', rather than gabbing on cell phones 24/7 with headset on.

Heck, I remember when ever driver had a 'handle', or a trucking nick name, those days are so gone, is why driving a truck today just a job filled with non English speaking types, or urban types or just older types who just need the money.

When the C.B. radio culture died, so did the spirit of trucking, now it's just corporate and technology...todays' truckers totally lack the big large personalities truckers of yester years use to have, now most truckers are introverts.

Technology, to me, is really shrinking humanity and the bonds people use to have with one another.

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After a few days off, got to hit it hard today

After a few days off, got to hit it hard today, like a 500 mile trip.

This is why I need a different form of income, I don't need to be driving 500 miles for any reason anymore, not for myself or for a company, and this is why I'm considering day trading, where I don't have to ever wake up and drive anywhere, but can simply earn money from home, 2 hours a day, and earn more than I'm earning now...cause I can't continue doing this much longer, as in less than a year.

It's just dangerous, a lot could happen in a 500 mile trip, and it's just stressful on the body and mind, bottom line I don't need it anymore, but as of now do need the income.

But plan on making a change within 4-6 months, hopefully, we'll see.

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I feel like crap right now, physically, sort of..

When at home, off for days, I never get sick or feel bad, but when spend 12 hours away at work, I sometimes come back feeling like crap, and think it's do to stuff I eat out there...like stuff with to much sugar in it.

Or to much fruit, which is also loaded with sugar.

Either way, when home never feel this way.

I just don't think my body likes sugar anymore, not in diabetic way, but more like tooth ache, jaw ache type of way.

No more sugary drinks, which I never drink when home, but today, I don't know, got sloppy.

Time for bed.

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To me, trucking is a sucky job now, to me it's like being a janitor on wheels.

It's different for everyone, totally different.

If married, have family support (boy that sounds so pre-historic, but none the less there's many who still fit that catigory)

But if married, have family to support, maybe not so bad when only role in life is to earn money, come home and sleep.

But if single, want a life, have other things trying to get into, the modern OTR or even long hours daily routes, will kill your social life.

But not everyone wants or needs a social life, so if a recluse, you make like always being by yourself, and going into Pilots, Flying J's and being treated poorly by cashiers...or if OTR taking showers inside of truck stops that some hair fat dude just stepped out of, even though supposedly cleaned.

Or if OTR having to always use the public restrooms taking a dump next to strangers who have terrible bathroom habits, or at rest areas..never any privacty.

Try getting 'the runs' when OTR and needing a bathroom every few minutes.

I've so outgrown all of that....you know you've outgrown a job, or anything, when it goes from being a challenge to a pain.

But I do it for now (day cab driving, so at least home daily after very long shifts), I do it for noww cause I like the schedule, not the job, but the schedule.

Like hell, If you could chose hell for 3 days a week vs 5 or 6 days a week, most would chose hell for 3 days a week with 4 days to recover, that's what I've done for now.

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And if a younger type into style and fashion, forget about it, you'll have nothing to visually encourage you, other than looking at passengers in cars that pass you all day long, but as for as other truckers or drivers go, forget about it.

All you'll be around is either older, chappy skinned, dead hair/balding, looking older 'spent' white dudes that remind you of hobbos that use to ride rail cars, or you'll be around foreign speaking drivers that you're basically invisible to unless speak their language...you'll feel like a foreignor in your own land.

You'll feel totally isolated, unless have someone at home to keep you encouraged.

But if looking for moral or encouragement from other modern day drivers, forget about it...some of the most anti social workers you'll ever meet.

The CB radio culture is all but dead, it's like the tower of babel now with foreign speaking drivers, old crusty unkept white male drivers, and or younger to mid aged urban black type drivers, each absorbed in their own individual worlds of self.

And expect to spend a ton of money on junk food, unless on strict diet of nuts and water.

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If I didn't have 4 days off a week to separate myself from that environment I'd be a mess (I would have quit), I'd be in poor mental and physical health.

But again, I've been doing this for a while, so it's like a old dead marriage to me.

And speaking of marriage, the bible tells you to wait wait and wait to have romance with another, wait till you're married, the Pastors say, so you wait wait and wait, to get married to another sinner who after a year cheats on you, or turns out to be a jerk, and you two get divorced after a a few years.

I mean sometimes trying to be 'holy' or 'perfect' in a sinful world seems like a joke, a taunt, a ruge.

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The last 3 days of work really did a job on me, as if tore me from myself and sent me way into outer space to be alone and removed from the self I was 3 days ago.

Most can't relate to that, for although most may not like their jobs, they're not working those jobs in total seclusion.

It's one thing to hate a job, and have co-workers around to confide in, laugh with, bond with, but it's another thing to not like your job, and be on duty for like, well basically the whole day, in that shifts are so long, you get off so late, that while working continuous days, there's not much you can do but get home, undress, ect, and just waddle around before sleep.

As if stationed on the moon all alone, then going on a mission, while on the moon, you're alone when you leave the base, and alone while on mission, but on mission feels even more lonely cause you have to stay focused.

That's kind of trucking for some, and for sure for me, at this phase of me life.

It's hard to explain other than some complained about being alone and separated do to corona virus restrictions, well that's like my life all the time.

Some go crazy if can't see a 'loved one' for more than a few days or weeks, or months, well try never ever being able to see a 'loved one'...

Be it the holidays or any other day, try never getting a card, never a call, never anyone checking up on you, never a hug, never anything other than work.

Now though, kind of drifting off into another realm of reality.

Life is complex, and then it's just over and ends.