Post by Admin on Oct 11, 2021 15:05:56 GMT
Need to get up and out today, but go where?
For my own physical and mental health sake, I need to get up and out today, but where?, go where?
It's so much easier to do things at home now, and less stressful, when go out dealing with different behaviors and attitudes, and most everyone judges you, or at least me, the wrong way.
Not sure why I ever expect people to be angels by nature, cause many just are not, are polite enough in social setting just to say hello and that's it, if that.
Or I should say polite enough not to punch you.
Let's see, I have a check to cash, that's never fun, not anymore, standing in line at a bank wearing mask, or drive through, it's just not fun.
For the most part, people just aren't romancey to me anymore, at least where I stay they're not, when younger, romancey people made you want to go out, they still do, but none seem to live where I stay.
Where I stay all the women are older, or look older, and have that dull bland 'Weesy' look form the Jeffersons, or that bloated 'Rosan Barr' look.
Where I stay the women don't look they way they do on TV, college aged type women, instead they all look older, post romanceual and bloated.
Where are all the romancey younger people I wonder, especially the white ones, you just don't see them where I stay.
The only younger white ones you see are those who fell through the social cracks and are not on the streets, homeless and addicted to drugs.
Squatters and all.
My attitude has really changed over the years, I knew it would if I stayed in this semi urban, gritty type of environment, but where am I going to go?, or move to?
Now days, it takes a minimum of 5 gran to move, minimum, 10 gran is ideal moving money, where can pay deposit on new place, get services cut on, buy what you need for new place, transfer licenses, forward mail ect, and then once move need at least 1 full week off, if not more, to just let it all sink in and get use to new place and location.
And then if you move, no garuntee things will be peaceful or quiet, could be a loud neighbor, barking dog, train crossing you didn't notice, roaches, other insects that come out at night in place...it all equals stress.
Moving while poor is stressful.
With lost wages and all, you're going to easily blow 6-8 gran in a move.
Moving was fun when young, and saw the world and self in it differently, but now, nah, or at least when single, moving could be fun again if in a relationship and didn't feel so alone.
Being in a healthy relationship either with a lover or with family, totally changes everything.
For my own physical and mental health sake, I need to get up and out today, but where?, go where?
It's so much easier to do things at home now, and less stressful, when go out dealing with different behaviors and attitudes, and most everyone judges you, or at least me, the wrong way.
Not sure why I ever expect people to be angels by nature, cause many just are not, are polite enough in social setting just to say hello and that's it, if that.
Or I should say polite enough not to punch you.
Let's see, I have a check to cash, that's never fun, not anymore, standing in line at a bank wearing mask, or drive through, it's just not fun.
For the most part, people just aren't romancey to me anymore, at least where I stay they're not, when younger, romancey people made you want to go out, they still do, but none seem to live where I stay.
Where I stay all the women are older, or look older, and have that dull bland 'Weesy' look form the Jeffersons, or that bloated 'Rosan Barr' look.
Where I stay the women don't look they way they do on TV, college aged type women, instead they all look older, post romanceual and bloated.
Where are all the romancey younger people I wonder, especially the white ones, you just don't see them where I stay.
The only younger white ones you see are those who fell through the social cracks and are not on the streets, homeless and addicted to drugs.
Squatters and all.
My attitude has really changed over the years, I knew it would if I stayed in this semi urban, gritty type of environment, but where am I going to go?, or move to?
Now days, it takes a minimum of 5 gran to move, minimum, 10 gran is ideal moving money, where can pay deposit on new place, get services cut on, buy what you need for new place, transfer licenses, forward mail ect, and then once move need at least 1 full week off, if not more, to just let it all sink in and get use to new place and location.
And then if you move, no garuntee things will be peaceful or quiet, could be a loud neighbor, barking dog, train crossing you didn't notice, roaches, other insects that come out at night in place...it all equals stress.
Moving while poor is stressful.
With lost wages and all, you're going to easily blow 6-8 gran in a move.
Moving was fun when young, and saw the world and self in it differently, but now, nah, or at least when single, moving could be fun again if in a relationship and didn't feel so alone.
Being in a healthy relationship either with a lover or with family, totally changes everything.
