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Post by Admin on Jul 17, 2024 1:04:32 GMT
The back drop to this forum, to me, is still so spot on.
It's a world or realm I wish I could actually visit...just the whole abandoned industrial factory look, and the grey sky's, has that Resident Evil movie look to it.
If I were the last person on earth, I wouldn't mind...I mean why not, I already live a lonely life, so it's as if I'm already living alone in this world.
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Post by Admin on Jul 17, 2024 1:07:26 GMT
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Post by Admin on Jul 20, 2024 19:15:56 GMT
It's Saturday It's Saturday, and I've been stuffed inside this room on computer all afternoon, I should go just do something outside this room for a while, but I'll wait till it cools down. That heat just knocks you back inside. ------------------------------ Ran an ad on C/L and as usual, always get the bottom of the social wrung who respond. Some drag queen type responded to a acting job I had posted, and turns out they're homeless and cars either in the shop or impounded...basically a needy person...needy people with nothing to lose and only stuff to gain by getting over on you can be dangerous to stability. They're homeless for a reason...drugs, booze, bad personality, irresponsible, it's something. You just don't go homeless for nothing, and lose your vehicle as well...it takes steps to get there. A homeless drag queen, hmm. If I were drunk I'd be all over that, as in calling them to do a interview or photo shoot, but since sober, as of late, I'm more careful. Anyways, it's Saturday..the above portrait taken today.
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Post by Admin on Jul 24, 2024 1:40:50 GMT
I'm to a point now where I realize no one can help me, nor will any ever help me and that I'm completely on my own, in all aspects of life.
The only people who pay attention to me are like basic service types, and only cause they're paid, as in leasing apt management, etc.
Outside of that, I don't exist to a soul on this planet...it's my fate, nothing I can do about it.
All I can do is live while still alive...I guess.
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Post by Admin on Jul 24, 2024 1:43:05 GMT
I really have no reason to have love or mercy on anyone sense love and mercy has never been shown on me.
I'm the template for the perfect monster, I suppose, if didn't have better angels on the inside.
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Post by Admin on Jul 24, 2024 1:44:45 GMT
Everyone's full of sh-t, they lie, fib, make sh-t up to fit their lies and fibs.
We live in a gross world, full of gross people, everyone making excuses and justifying their warped behaviors.
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Post by Admin on Jul 24, 2024 1:48:05 GMT
And oddly, the one person, me, who's never done anything wrong, never hurt anyone, is tormented the most.
I have no rap sheet, nothing, nada...and art is not bad, hell, if artsy in Hollywood you become a celebrity and your films earn millions, or in music.
People are so full of gdm sh-t who try to alienate me for art, or artful expression, yet buying the album or or watching the movies of cocaine smoking, wife abusing, cursing, ego maniacs.
I think it's personal with me, as in it's the devil.
But what can I do about it?
Not a dam thing.
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Post by Admin on Jul 25, 2024 20:04:30 GMT
North Main of Jax, the original bad spot of this city
North main was the original bad spot of this city, now though, not so much.
But regardless, at night you or one can still get lost up on these streets and leave out, and never come home.
The streets are no joke.
But within even the streets, you can find peace and tranquility at times, and even nature.
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Post by Admin on Jul 27, 2024 19:44:17 GMT
That feeling, that feeling where you just know you're doomed
That feeling, that feeling of feeling utterly doomed, like you don't have a chance in hell to succeed at anything, and that time and fate are just toying with you.
Oh well, what are ya gonna do.... 
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Post by Admin on Aug 2, 2024 3:25:54 GMT
I'm getting internet fatigue.
Just the act of signing into a website can be enough to make me not.
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