Diary of a ghost

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Not really feeling so motivated the last few days.
All my momentum just dropped off a cliff.

Not sure how to get it back.
Maybe cause I'm spending so much of my time alone...maybe going out and mingling with the right people is the only way to get it back...or participating in a romanceual orgy...ye right.

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Oh, some ice-cream would hit the spot right now, got some in the freezer, but nah...at least not yet.

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Deactivated my one and only last remaining account on X, or twitter, talk about a feeling of liberation.

I mean why should I continue to waste my time going to a site where I get basically no views, no comments, no impressions, nothing....while at the same time I get harvested for my info...screw that.

It becomes an emotional drain after a while, when you post superb comments, stuff, and yet the algorithm suppresses your posts.
I think the people prior to Elon taking over did it.

Cause I used to get like 500+ average impression, twitter used t be fun, prior to the Trump years, but it just changed when Trump ran for office.

It's not Trump's fault, but that's just when ultra left types began tweeking stuff behind the scenes, shadow banning ect.

What an evil practice shadow banning is.
Silicon valley is full of evil snake like people, period.
I guess every ones capable of being evil, but not all evil people have control over others like folks in silicon valley

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Just kind of feel like watching a older Popeye cartoon.
Everyone in this world is so screwed up, so few honest people left.
Other than myself.

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Hurricane Debby, from afar, at night



Hurricanes, at least to me, can and do have a soothing effect on my soul.
I feel safer, actually, when hurricanes are near by, cause people just seem to chill out, even criminals seem to chill out for a while when hurricanes are around.

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About to do one of the scariest things ever for me right now, and that is check my checking balance, cause my future hinges on what's left or in it.

Either I die or fly, based on what's left, so yeah, I have a right to be nervous right now.

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What I'm about to look at next, is going to effect my emotions good or bad, in a heavy way.

If I have less money than I should...well.
If I have less, but not that less, well, OK

If I'm ahead of what I thought...cool.

But with my luck...expect the worse.

Not going to allow, or let this world kick me around for no reason anymore.

Not going to let this world torture me, just to be tortured.



Yes, I'm a bit scared right now.
But in the end, I just want to be free, who doesn't....

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First thing I will do, after I drink some coffee, is go workout.

Wow, it's after 12 noon already...I really slept in late after getting up early.
But yeah, my workouts come in first now...cause there's a storm approaching, and if I'm not in decent shape, nothing else will matter.

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Poor man's egg taco



Poor mans egg taco preparation

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Tomorrow I gotta do something that just doesn't seem so fun to me at all, and early at that.

Gotta, or agreed to do someone a favor...which means I gotta rent a car, which means going to the airport, getting a car, then dropping mine off = money.

Then driving back across this city to go pick them up at a dealership where they're turning in their vehicle, then driving them all the way up to Savannah GA...oh what a long boring ride, meaningless conversation.
Then once there, dealing with Savannah traffic, dropping them off, staying for dinner or lunch...more small talk...then finally knowing when to break away so I can drive all the way back to Jax, FL, drop car off at airport, pick my own one up, and then drive home...yuk.

What's fun about that?
Nothing, but I'll pretend I'm having fun.
It's not like they're a pretty female date or something where trying to score points.
I'm just doing it out of good ole fashion friendship, I suppose, and cause maybe one day I'll need their recommendations.

But geez, that whole day tomorrow is just tiring me out ahead of time.