Alcohol spectrum

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I need to get myself up, charged and going today, outside the realm of alcohol, is that possible on this cold frigid day?

We shall see.

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Liquor is the worst demonic poison toxin to the soul ever



Liquor sucks, alcohol sucks.

Avoid it at all costs, cause in reality what it will do is shrink you, make you smaller, not larger but smaller.

Never ever forget that.

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Sometimes I think being drunk has more influence over me than the 'holy spirit', in that when drunk, I'm able to actually tolerate those I'd normally hate, even certain family members.

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On a day like today, the last day before have to go back to work, it's very tempting to want to drink, but I must resist.

But it's tempting, it really is.

Alcohol, being drunk, just has a way of making you not feel so alone at times.

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Seems even when you stop drinking, you still wake up, at times, feeling as if you have



As you get older, or maybe it's the same when younger, I forget, but just seems even when don't or aren't drinking, at times you still waking up feeling just as discombobulated as if you had been drinking.

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I don't know if I feel worse while sober or if just being sober now, all the time, makes me notice how deteriorated body really is, but when drinking just to drunk to notice.

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I think I'm serious this time about not drinking, cause it's going on 3 weeks or so, I almost gave in yesterday.

I think due to falling ill, that had a lot to do with it, the pain I was in was finally more influencial to me than the short term joy of drinking.

And I continue to lose weight, that right there is thrilling enough, for it's about being romancey to self more so than others, as you age.

I'll never be the romanceiest person alive to others, but I can at least be and feel romancey to self, and that does a lot for ones self esteem, to self.
I really do hope I can keep down the road of sobriety, so far I like the results.



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My looks are starting to come back now that I've stopped drinking.
Also still losing weight.
And eating a lot less on purpose.

I think I stopped drinking just in time, I think many would not have stopped and would of simply died by now, just another ambulance call it would of been, but I stopped, and was in good enough shape, that I'm still here, for now.

I think from the alcohol, plus other stuff I was eating, there was just so many toxins circulating around in this body that something was going to break soon.

But I've stopped drinking, bodies detoxing, I'm getting thinner, but still have odd body aches.

If took photo of just my body, you'd think I were 19 or 23.

But in Earth years I'm well above those ages.



That's me, yep, sure is. Not done editing it though, but decided to share anyways to prove I could pass for much younger than I really am.

Life is only fun, if still romancey to self, not so much to others, but to self, at least when single.

I think single people, regardless the age, are just more conscious about their looks than married couples are.

Especially some males who just think that being married is a license for them to become overweight hairy slobs.

Oh well, why did I even start writing this post, it's late and I need my rest.

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I think I've won the alcohol battle, for now.
I mean in the past, a dull Sunday afternoon like this would of been a redlight to go buy some beers and drink, and escape into goofiness.
But now, nah.

I don't need alcohol to be goofy, I'm already a bit goofy at times.

I've replayed that broken alcohol record to many times to already know it's a dead end.

I think drinking is what you can do, and not feel as bad about it, when you've actually accomplished something in life.

Well I'm not there yet, so when I drink, it's like I'm just making a mockery out of myself.

I guess, I don't know.

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Sometimes it feels as if I got more done when drunk.

But that can't be true, I just think when drunk, and drinking, would have 'hurried up moments'.

Cause when drinking to get drunk, you know you have to hurry up and get stuff done while still having or getting that drunken high feeling, cause if you wait to long, than you get that drunking sinking feeling, especially if eat a lot while or after drunk, then you just want to sleep, and nothing gets done.

But when sober, life is more sturdy and measured, and so doesn't seem as if things are happening as quickly as when drunk.

But I think it's just an illusion of sorts.

I think I get more stuff done now that sober, but it just doesn't feel like it.