When you stop drinking it's like you wake up out of a 'coma'
When you stop drinking, (This applies to those who drink or drank daily when off work or on the weekends spent majority of free time being or getting drunk )
But when you stop drinking, it's like waking up out of a coma, a stupor, in that you go back to the place you were when you started, so if started drinking at age, say, 24, and stop drinking at age 35, when you stop drinking at age 35, it's like you're back to where you were when 24.
Not physically, but as far as mental development, not even though, more like emotional development. Not sure if explaining right, all I can say is it's like waking up suddenly, and wondering where 'you' have been all those years.
It can be both sad and joyous at the same time.
Sad in that you're like 'Wow, all that time I wasted prioritizing getting drunk, instead of prioritizing a fulfilling career, or prioritizing a relationship or prioritizing this or that, the list can be long or short, but either way you realize how much time you've wasted being side tracked by the effects of alcohol.
But it can be joyous in that it's kind of like being given a second chance, a rebirth, particularly if lucky enough to have made it through all those years of drinking without any major inncident as in D.U.I, or getting arrested at a club or bar, or hurting self in accident or getting some major alcohol related disease or illness, and so forth.
Me, myself, and looking back at my own drinking episode, a few things saved me from disaster.
1. I kept working out, always made it a habit to stay fit regardless of drinking.
2. Diet evolved, stopped eating a lot of red meat, cut powdered sugar out of life years ago, and the same with powdered sodium or salt, ate a ton of fruit and veggies.. In other words yes I drank daily after work, and on weekends, but at the same time was eating healthy, like no soft drinks and all.
I think, know, had I drank while eating like a slob, I'd have diabetes or a heart attack or some other drinking related illness....so I was lucky, I suppose, in that aspect.
But as far as socially, my drinking totally screwed that up, I think, maybe not, cause even before I started drinking I never really fit in socially anywhere, I've always been a misplaced soul, and when I do meet the right people, or a woman, their older and married, and same with males...everyone in the blue collar world taken, and owned by their own environment.
So that tends to leave someone like me feeling very isolated and alone.
And it's that feeling of isolation, and being alone, that made me start drinking in the first place, to hide that feeling, but sadly drinking didn't create any new relationships for me, not a one.
But drinking did bring out other more creative sides of self that in a way I'm glad did come out, for without those years of creativeness, none of this would be hear, all this writing and more would not ever have occurred.
The art, none of it, not that it matters, I mean it's not like I'm getting rich off of my creativity, like others do, but still, who knows, maybe another will get something out of it long after I'm gone.
And I'm to lazy to put it all into a book, like others would.
Anyways, this episode isn't over in that have only stopped drinking regularly for about 9 days now, but in last 10 years, I think I've only gone 9+ days without a drink maybe 3 times, if that.
U think the longest was maybe 2 weeks, so we'll see.
Later, I'll explain what made me stop drinking this time.