Alcohol spectrum

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I drank way to much yesterday, so stupid me, what do I feel like doing again?



I drank way to much yesterday, didn't wake up until after 12 noon, and so stupid me, yep, I feel like having a few more beers so can at least go into the evening feeling better than I do now, considering I have to work tomorrow.

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I almost started drinking heavily today, but stopped at 2 beers, why?
This may sound odd, but I stopped drinking only after 2 beers cause I realize I have no one to drink for or with anymore.

My life is like a giant ball room, where a party should be held, but no one ever shows up, so why drink then?



It's like being in this big empty ballroom all alone, expecting others to show up, but they never do, so what's the point of drinking?

Drinking is something you do to impress others, not yourself, is kind of what I've known for a while, and so when there's no others to impress, why drink?
Why get sick? Why damage your health? If all alone in a empty ballroom, what's the point?

And is so why I need to go sober, again, but this time for even longer.

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I rarely read or click the adds above and or below, but yesterday I did, and it was a good one about a former drinker who changed his ways, and developed a vita pack that replaces all the minerals that drinking flushes out over the years, thus preventing you or one from being happy or feeling full range of emotions.
It was a good testimony, and made a lot of sense.

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Right now instead of drinking or getting drunk, I'm eating salmon



Yes, instead of drinking I'm eating healthy, thankgoodness.
And without alcohol in system, body can better absorb all the nutrients from this salmon, which I paid a hefty price for, but hey, salmon, this time of the year?
Was probably flown in from afar.

Not having the best day, nor the worst, just learning how to be sober again on a long term basis.

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Ye, I wonder how many years I've lost to alcohol?
All the missed opportunities...one will get sad and disgusted thinking about it.

People always say 'There's always tomorrow', but the older you get, the less tomorrow's there are to look forward to.
That being said, at least for now I'm not drinking, it's like every 5-6 months you just, or I just reach that spot where I realize I'm getting nothing out of it anymore other than depression, and weight gain, and sadness.

But, when I compare my drinking to others, I really don't drink that much, and only pretty much drink beer now when I do drink.
But even beer, when drink enough of it, can have the exact same effect as hardcore booze, or liquor.

Like I read about guys/gals, drinking bottles of wine every night, or bottles of Jack Daniels, ect...I could never do that, I have to much 'self love'....that would be like suicide, literally.

I still have to much self love to be that destructive to my own body.
I just like and respect life, not just my own, but that of animals and most insects, other than roaches, misquitoes, and spiders, ticks, fleas, you know, insects that attack.

Same with humans, I respect human life, except for those who attack and hurt others.

Anyways, not drinking now, so will lay back for a minute, recharge, and then start second part of the day, or night.

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One large can of beer, then I just stopped

I drank one large can of beer, out of loneliness, then I just stopped, and tossed the other one into the waterway outside...maybe a fisherman will find it.

I was preparing to go to the corner store, buy some more beer, come back, get a bit more drunk, email someone, or call, talk big while on the phone, boast, ect, and then at the end of the day or night, slump off into a post drunk sleep.

Been there done that.

Then looked at self in mirror, and said 'You can do better than this'...

In that that 'beer face' was beginning to come back...screw that...I haven't drank since Tuesday, why not keep it going?

And I only drank that one beer cause it was already here.

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Bottom line, instead of going to store to buy beer, I'm eating ramon noodles, in that I'd rather get fat off of noodles, than get fat off of beer.

I'll be OK, cause I do exercise...just having a transitional first day off, they're usually the most awkward.

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When you first stop drinking, life can seem really dull without alcohol, especially when alone.
When you're alone, alcohol like makes you into multiple people and personalities, that keep you company.

Alcohol brings out your

1. silly side
2. creative side
3. Sometimes you angry side
4. your dual romanceual orientation side
5. your bragging side

And more, I mean all those sides are already in ya, but booze tends to bring them out, and when alone, those other sides provide for a interesting time.

But when sober, and alone, it's harder to get those other sides to come out, and or if they do, you feel odd, cause you can't blame it on booze.

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I'm in a alcohol induced crabby mood, and on top of that i have to work tomorrow, which, I don't know.
Maybe be good actually, in a odd way.

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The one good thing about me, when I'm working at my job, is that I'm not drinking, and instead actually working out during 'down times'.
It's why I'm in way better health/shape, than I probably deserve to be in, is cause I do work out, I walk, I stretch ect.

But when I'm off from work, sitting around and bored and or lonely, that's when I tend to drink.

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All I had was 2.5 beers today, and it totally knocked me off my game.
Body chemistry is odd, sometimes two beers do absolutely nothing, then other times two beers will get you sick, and lower moral, and make you feel depressed.

Other times you can drink three 4 packs of beer, and feel just fine.

Body chemistry is odd.