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Post by Admin on Dec 23, 2023 5:02:08 GMT
It's been a while...
But ye, i seriously don't know what my next phase in life should be, is supposed to be, ect. I really feel like I've used up my useful time, and now just hanging on just cause I'm alive, body lives, but not sure what to do going forward.
Not much is turning out the way I invisioned it, and if all I see is hardship ahead, well. I mean I'm just getting older, and aging alone can be very scary in today's world.
I should probably prioritize registering with the VA.
Lease expires in about 5 months, and after that, I just don't know, wish I could stay where I'm at forever, but I can, rent keeps going up, pay isn't, and I don't want to spend rest of years working self to death, so only option I have is to move into cheaper place, maybe get a used RV, drift, I just don't know.
No wife, no small feet's, no family of my own, that makes the future, my future, seem very uncertain and scary.
We shall see.
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Post by Admin on Dec 23, 2023 5:05:29 GMT
Also, I found a 'people finder site', that suggests bad things about 'me', and that has me a bit dismayed. I want to sue them, and maybe that will be my last mission in life, cause no telling how that's effected my social life, ect and other. But also, to those who believed such stuff, I no longer want them in my life either, cause they can never give me back the years of isolation I've lived, all over some stuff that wasn't true.
Not even sure why I was born.
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Post by Admin on Dec 23, 2023 5:23:09 GMT
Anyways, already time for bed, I just know I've gotta find a reason to live, to be happy, joyful, or else, whatever. They say if not happy, I mean hopeful type of happy, that your body takes ques from your mind and you could actually think yourself into sickness or dying...hopefully not, I've just gotta find some new footing in life, we shall see.
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Post by Admin on Dec 25, 2023 16:26:18 GMT
Xmas meal for many, 101
Just another day, for many, just another meal.
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Post by Admin on Dec 27, 2023 3:03:59 GMT
This is why I miss flying drones
I need to get another drone, I miss flying these things, it was a fun hobby that I really got into for a while.
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Post by Admin on Dec 27, 2023 5:23:57 GMT
Not into 'hit and run' conversations
Not into 'hit and run' conversations, where one person says outlandish things about you, then hangs up before you can respond, not having that.
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Post by Admin on Dec 31, 2023 15:58:32 GMT
Anyways, as much as I don't feel like it, I've gotta get up, get dressed, and go to the store, and while out, I may buy some beer for later tonight, or hell, start drinking now.
I often drink during the day, I mean why not, cause I don't go out at night, so day drinking (when off from work) is probably the safest time for me to drink, cause then come night, I'm to drunk or passed out to cause issues for myself on the streets. -------------------------
But ye, it's new years eve, so what, just like Thanksgiving was a so what, and xmas was a so what, so tonight will be yet another 'so what' for me as well.
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Post by Admin on Jan 1, 2024 1:09:13 GMT
Be weary of those who use the smear and run tactic on you
Be weary of those who use the smear and run tactic on you.
You know, they smear your name, character, in front of others or behind your back, and then run away so you can't respond, or hang up the phone....such types are rotten to the core, manipulative monsters that fear the truth, cause the truth will knock them off their perch.
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Post by Admin on Jan 1, 2024 3:44:25 GMT
I rejoined tik tok again, and got bored with it in a matter of days. I mean you get a flurry of views, and then everything just drops off, not to mention the constant sign in issues, ect, I mean who has time for all that if not making money from it.
Sure, tik tok boosts a few people to fame by allowing their videos to be seen, but the vast majority of users on there are just there to have their info harvested.
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Post by Admin on Jan 1, 2024 5:47:05 GMT
In with the new, out with the old, time waits on no one
Time waits on no one... Brace yourselves for 2024, I stopped liking the future years ago, I find the future to be very corrosive to life.
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