Diary of a ghost

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Lately been caught up in goofy online video games



This game here addictive.

Anyways, not much to say, a lot going on, but just don't feel like writing about it right now.
It's Thursday, off today, gotta work tomorrow, dern.
Life sucks at times....actually it's people who suck, being alive is neutral and what you/we, make of it.

It's other humans who make life hard on us, you and me.

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Seems the minute you start worrying about others, doing things to help others, is when you're (my) fortune seems to change for the worst.

Others, are a burden, at least the wrong type of others.
You can't go wrong, ever, by just looking out for self first.

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Keep life simple, as you age



Don't be a slave to junk and 'stuff', as you age; rather keep your life as simple and free of mental and physical clutter as you can, and you'll know happiness and freedom like never before.
Gen X.

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I've lived a very safe, yet unlucky, non-prosperous life.

I have failed in business, I've failed in the social front, I've failed on the family front, I've failed to create a family of my own, I've failed in dating, I've failed in art, radio, podcasting, music.
I failed to become rich, do to all the bad decisions I've made.
But I made those decisions for the right reasons, but when not surrounded by a supporting cast of people, you just fall, there's no one to catch you.

Looking back, my life basically has no meaning, if i were never born, nothing would be missing, there are dogs, farm animals, that will be missed more than me when i die.
There are animals that have more impact on peoples lives, happiness, than I do.

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Outside of my Mother, there's not a single person on this planet who even remotely cares about me, who would invest in me anymore, I'm throwaway material as of now.

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I have3 about 13 days to just sit around and wait on a check...I suppose I could try to find work until then, but then what?
Cause the check, assuming all works out, will be so large, that I'd just quit whatever job hired me to take care of business, as in move, or buy a RV, used one, maybe a newer vehicle, and get rid of the two older ones I got, fill out a 'will', and just other stuff you can't do when burdened with a job schedule.

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I've been unemployed for a few weeks now, cause hoping to come into a bit of money soon, not much, but enough to relax for a few months...but with my luck, who knows.
Was going to try to get unemployment, but wow, the invasiveness of it all...with this 'ID me', site you have to go through...screw all that, biometrics and crap...that's why I left former job.

Sick of this online intrusive 3rd party crap.

Also, trying to get mentally and physically fit again, to be ready for whatever happens.
Right now, I certainly can't afford to be drunk and lazy, for sure.

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I suspect my female, second story neighbor, spies on me as I walk around the kitchen at night naked



I suspect my second floor neighbor has been spying on me as I walk around the kitchen naked at night.
Their blinds are always wide open, mine are always shut, and their building slightly higher than mine, so even though my blinds are shut, I suspect they can look down into my place.

I actually did see someone in there tonight looking right over at my place, but the lights were off so they couldn't see that I was filming.
It was an older chubby white woman wearing glasses...hmm

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I'm richer today than i was yesterday, by a lot, yet I don't feel any different at all.
I'm not wealthy, by no means, but I am richer than I was yesterday, yet I feel no different at all, cause I know the money I just got (or will on Monday) doesn't really change anything in my life, not my economics, nothing...all it does is buy me a bit more time, gives me a bit more of a cushion, for a while.
But to me, anything under 100 grand, really isn't life changing, if already living a either middle class or lower working class life.

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The hardest thing for me to do, even though maybe, come Monday, might have a bit of cash...is learning how to relax and stop thinking about the future and or a deadline or schedule...

If I could stop doing that, feeling like I'm fighting the clock, then I think just maybe, once again, I could learn, or know what it's like to be happy.