Alcohol spectrum

[Admin]

booze really hits you differently as you age, it like impacts every cell in your mind and body.
I guess as you age and your organs lesson it just takes more effort to flush it out.

[Admin]

Well one way I'm gonna flush out my body is go workout, first thing.
I've been working out daily every day for a few weeks, can't stop now do to one set back.

I went out to a country western bar the other day, a small one, here in the city...just had one beer there, but had other beers before and maybe after that.

It was an OK experience, but just wish I could do that without drinking, but the whole purpose of a bar or pub is to drink, hanging around such a place sober would be weird, I suppose.

Anyways, time to snap out of my daze, get up, groom, get dressed, and go refreshing my body while working out.
Oxyenate the body by sweating out gunk, breathing in clean air, increasing blood flow.

[Admin]

OK, I just got back from a short walk/bike workout, got the blood flowing a bit, stretched a bit, but my mood really didn't respond much, that means there's something heavier on my mind.

The only way, sometimes, to make yourself feel better is to succeed.
Nothing boosts your mood like being triumphant.

[Admin]

No booze for me tonight...that's a good thing.
As a drinker, if can over come Friday and Saturday nights without drinking, that means you're really making progress.
Just being healthy in and of itself has to become an exciting thing again...that's when you know you're making progress.

[Admin]

Sobriety can be one scary ride, if not used to it



Sobriety can be one scary ride, for sure, if not used to it, and you realize what a shaky foundation of supposed friends, even family, and or future you've created for yourself.

Once sober, you have to decide how to make things right again, one corrective decision at a time.

[Admin]

When I drink I look ugly, but have fun.

When I don't drink I actually look pretty decent for my age, any age, but then at times, I don't know, just feel so bored and bland.

I should probably go workout before the sun goes down.

Wish could get that drunk feeling without the terrible side effects of booze.

[Admin]

The hardest part about not drinking when used to drinking is...

The hardest part is learning not to cap off high emotional moments with booze, period.

Like in the past, if I got happy, I felt I could get happier with booze, or if I spoke on the phone with someone I enjoyed, I felt the conversation would be more enjoyable if I were drinking or drunk, and so forth.

It's learning how to just enjoy your natural emotional high, without feeling that some how booze can enhance it.
That's so very important to overcome that temptation or notion.

If you overcome that, that's 90% of the battle, at least with me.

Kind of the way a smoker pulls out a smoke every time they start talking to you on the street, etc...the same phycological phenom.

[Admin]

Drinking puts like a layer of chub on your face...until that layer of chub is gone, I won't feel totally like I won.

It can take weeks for that layer of chub or face fat, to go away, but when it does, you start to look so much better and youthful, and your face skin is tighter on you, especially if already thin to begin with.

[Admin]

It's Friday night and I'm working out instead of drinking, and for my age, any age, I feel pretty decent.
I think sobriety is winning, at least for now.
I haven't set any sobriety records yet, not even close.

Also, not having a job I hate helps, not having any job, helps...
Going back to work could ruin this run, cause hating what you do makes you want to drink when off on the weekends or evenings....it really does.

And working a job you hate can get you out of shape quick if it effects your outlook on life, or if a OTR driver spending hours, days, away from home on the road eating junk food, death food, that crap out there is terrible for you....the sugary drinks, everything, the chips, all of it...death food.

Anyways, between reps, let me finish up this workout.

[Admin]

It's no doubt about it, when I drink consistently, minor medical issues arise, as in pain here or there or sinus issues, etc.
Just small yet nuisance stuff, cause lets face it, if one part of your body not feeling right it effects you, period, no matter how minor.

When I stop drinking, my body feels near perfect to me.
So why would I still drink, at times, while knowing that?

I don't know, emotional reasons I suppose.
Having a healthy body doesn't translate into always having a healthy mind or life.